bummer

Have you guys ever experienced when you just don't seem to be talking loud enough? For me, my mum or grandma says something and I, naturally, reply. Right? Instead they go "HUH?" and I have to repeat myself, and yet, "HUH??" as if I am deaf. I don't know, maybe my voice isn't the shouting time. I admit, at times, it tends to bend in it's surroundings. But I can be loud if I want... just for not very long ^^|

But seriously, my mum and grandma, they keep asking for my answer, and I swear I say it louder every time, and when they DO get the reply, they tell me not to be so angry! T__T Firstly, how can I not be so angry after answering 5 times, every question.. next, [I AM NOT ANGRY!!! >=( jks jks] I am not angry T__T jst trying to get my message across. =/ I don't know when I am loud.. but when I think I am, I stop in my tracks and be quiet. I don't like being in the spotlight... it is so uncomfortable. 0.0 [others think otherwise]

Anyways, I must give a special shout out to Uzzi for turning a dismal night to a productive one. [ps. I got my notification from AFS, and it wasn't good so I was feeling crappy]
and to MC =] ahhh, my little chicken wing [mmm chicken.... ] hahah my little soldier in a short funny girl's body. Hang in there! And I'll give you a hug any time you want! hehe

mmm well... I haven't had the heart to write much lately [maybe in the holis] so I'll stop and stare (8) I mean, stop and study =P zomg.. feeling really like a girl ==" anyways. It's a bummer.

remember killing is bad! so instead of saying "kill two birds with one stone" [cos you are super muscly] say "bought two cakes with one dollar" ;) it suits me perfectly

and dont worry about HSC so quickly, "you eat a cake one bite at a time" [1 step of a time uses too much energy =P]

mata ne

who are you?

Many of us have or will ask yourselves "who am I?" and the answer is never an easy one. The answer cannot be communicated as it is too complicated for language and the mind to comprehend, yet too simple for any of us to believe. I am not sure about others, but I find it really easy to change oneself. Not completely but enough to not be the same person as before. A reason for why some people don't see this is because we grow together with the same group of friends, if someone from the group meet new people, they aren't the same guaranteed.

So a better question, a simpler question, would be "who do I want to be?" now think about it, there are many different types of people out there it is a matter of what you like and do not like. Though it is not like a candy store where you name out a lolly and you get it straight away for cheap, it is a similar concept. However, it requires patience, work and time. These words alone are never enough to explain what it is, and how to do it. There is no step by step book, but good starters are environment [ie. people around you - influences], constant reminders [you gotta catch yourself] ... this is a ridiculous topic, bet you everyone will be like bleaugh.

OK same sort of topic for the girls -

What do you like most in a guy? Mature and gentlemanly? Or fun and enjoyable?
I can guess the answer is "it is different people"...... you know what..? just answer the poll. blogging about it gives me second thoughts, rights and wrongs. bah i am getting annoyed at myself hahaha

Different Person

I am not the same boy I was before all the atrocities of my mistakes had settled it. My emotions are raw, like the surface of a new cut metal. I am nothing like what I was before. Before the mistakes. During the times of hardship, I wished so much to revert back to the way it was before, but I knew it could never happen. I have developed much greater than I thought I would be. Not the same, but greater. I couldn't feel more alive. Somethings are necessary. I did at one point regret some things, but I do not now. It was a learning process, one with the help of many many friends. Friends that I can count on, friends that are themselves, and drumming reality into my mind. Dear and humble friends that without knowing, are developing not just themselves, but people around them as well. I am almost done with watching, it is almost time to just jet.

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Well first day of school wooh! It actually wasn't that bad. Besides English which I am so stressed about, everything was not bad. My concentration level is at a high =] productive lessons all the way! Almost did all maths questions in class =D and senior it wasn't as hard to be productive. BUT it might just be start of school syndrome.

Start of school syndrome = where you set goals so determined, it happens on the first few days and then you forget as time passes.

We got our jerseys!! but it was pretty anti-climatic when we can't wear it till after trials or on Wednesdays. I was going to wear it to tutor, but then realised it would be a little weird, so I shall wait till I wear it a few times and be confident in it =P DONT WORRY I love Hurlstone, just not confident in myself yet ;) well enough.. [didn't make sense]

I also have the post camp blues - sad because you aren't at camp anymore. Well I did, but Hurlstoners made me happy again =] So, though I miss some people from camp, I wouldn't have it any other way.

state of mind - happy, but not clear. The answer is in my head, but I don't really want to accept it ^^|

back from camp

Camp was magnificent, the people was awesomely nice, every one of them surprisingly. Study was decent, and the food was fabulous. Didn't know uni students can cook that well. I am inspired. One thing I don't want to do is study more though :L *shrugs* it was a memorable 6 days or so.

"I hope I don't lose what I gained"

well back to studying for the HSC and then .. *yawn* I want to sleep =]

riddle?

I’m as light as a feather, yet I can destroy everything.
I am as clear as the sky, yet no one can see me.
And existing, to you, is a matter breathing.
I was here much longer than you, I decree.
Strangely, when I am present things are on the ground,
But when I am not, things float around and around
There is none far far away
But this place, everywhere, I am here to stay.
As complex as this riddle may seem
It is a common thing you do know
And a clue, ask yourself where is steam.
And that, my good friends, is the end of the show.

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courtesy to study camp

food for thought

Shen hsiu -

The body is like a bodhi tree
the mind is like a standing mirror
always try to keep it clean
don't let t gather dust.

Han Neng's reply -

bodhi doesn't have any trees,
this mirror doesn't have a stand
our buddha nature is forever pure
where do you get dust?

The mind is the bodhi tree
the body is the mirror's stand
the mirror itself is so clean
dust has no place to land
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no smart ass comments pls =]

I like it old fashion

Call me a typical guy that looks at girls, but... well I am a guy right? haha
Well I am not sure about you guys, but I love the elegance and beauty of the classic lady. Not too much make up, pretty dresses and delicacy. I guess I like the idea of inner beauty over pretty outside. I am not saying that doesn't happen now, but it is rare. Guys aren't gentlemanly anymore. Well no pure breed gentlemen where they were born and raised as a gentleman, to serve the family and their wife.

It is today's society that makes it so hard. With 15 seconds of fame sort of idea, no one cares about the consequences of their actions anymore. They just want to get seen, then they are forgotten as quick as they were seen. [mind the generalisation, but that is the bad end of our society] Girls objectify themselves by showing as much skin, or more... and guys just let that happen =/ Guys don't make any of it any better either. They think it is ok to force girls into things, think of girls as objects. [baaah I feel like such a hypocrite, but I have no intentions of 'getting' with anyone till I get to know who they are... still..] I guess it is partially my fault but it is hard to fight against influences of society. the media, environment and role models. Horrible =/ How do we deal with this??

THUS!!!!! EMMY ROSSUM RULES!! :L elegant, beautiful, funny and super intelligent. heheh ^^| *scratches head* all right I'll leave now. I think all that stuff above will be blasphuemy to some people but that's ok. It was meant to be. I am not totally innocent either! >< like before, good luck with studys guys =]

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[edit cos i have time]
I had something else in mind, but i completely forgot =S
oh wells.. well atm I feel nervous for some reason. It is like I am going to sit for an exam or go for an interview (which I am not) lols being nervous reminds me of all the times I screw up in front of the school. I find it funny and very embarrassing at the same time. I mean if I find it hard to speak infront of one person how do you expect me to talk infront of the school!? hahah oh wells, all practise ^^| lets hope I don't get marked on that =P

Right, I remember now! Packing all my notes [all that I need] I find myself in a jungle of trees... made out of paper. LOLS. In other words, LOOK HOW MUCH PAPER I WASTED! well not wasted.. but still.. my bag full of books and paper weighs 11.5kilos... and considering paper weighs less than a gram. Something that will float [shh physic ppl =P] 11.5 kilos of paper is weigh [pun intended] too much. But, that isn't all my notes and paper I used and have. I selected all the important stuff.. so all the side notes teachers and class sheets we were given is probably just as much, if not more than that! If you want to save the world from global warming... stop the HSC! HSC encourages loggers to cut trees.. yet we are learning that it is wrong not to cut trees down. Strange...

Anywho, last night, I took out the bin right, and for the first time in my life [in the suburb] saw a house lit up with lights! I kid you not, there was a house with lights on. For those who have never been to my suburb.. there are no lights. in my street 2 working street lights, and I think that is a little stretching it! But to see a house lit up deserved a moment of silence. So I told my brother "hey look that house has lights on!" and we stood there for 5 seconds or so just looking at it thinking... "weird people these days, now!? you turn the lights on!?" then to master chef we went.

Making up all the blog time I will not have.. Or will I?? ;) We'll see, I might write in my universal book [ie scrap paper] about all the wonderful thoughts I have buzzing around my head.

pssst... I think I blog way to much for a HSC student ^^|

Outa space

Well... prolly last post before I leave. Let me say first and for most. You know how I complained about my mother to some of you... she isn't like a freak where she just worries way too much. yeaah..

Anyways the lack of blogging meant I was busy or just didn't feel like it and the latter was the correct one. Busy yes.. but I could always spare time for blogging =P Anywho, it was Sunday, and we squashed well. 10 games each (stamina is increasing therefore getting fit! wooh!) mm it was fun, I still wanted to play more (even though dead tired)

*yawn* I shouldn't blog at this hr. It is 12:30 am and I should be sleeping >=( hmm
btw IF you see me commenting or playing some funky game on fb IT IS NOT ME! lols.. I gave thang my acnt cos he wanted to play friends for sale and mafia wars ==" so I gave him the acnt. yaaah... I haven't failed yet =P

Well on this week away from home I have one message for you readers [whoever you maybe]
YR12 readers : get the *BEEP* off my blog and study!! =] please
YR (randoms): get off my blog and stalker someone else!! >=D [only to those stalkers]
to the good kids: ... there are none if they read this ;) JKS JKS. stay well, safe and warm. Then study hard and have a good week. Last holiday before the big one, so rest up study up and giddy up.

Ja na.

It's a bird! No! It's a plane! No! it is... something in my eye...

Horray I have finished half of the work I set out to do. *shoots himself in the foot* maybe next time I'll be more prepared. Hahaha I actually do type a lot... yet, record amounts of views ;) 69 wooh! Doesn't matter anyways. You know the first time I blogged [not this one] it was for personal use. Deep dark secrets in code, just an outlet for emotions. However, at the moment, little emotions run through my veins. I have turned into a robot who was built to study for the HSC, but loves to procrastinate. Not every efficient anyways =P horrible creators.

Anyways! I thought I'd be a little emotional and reflect on the past. Well things have got me thinking lately, and I can see how I was back when i started high school. I compare it to how i was, and what I wanted to be. And, not to be up myself or arrogant but... I am actually close to what I wanted to be. Of course the closer the date becomes the more ridiculous some of my ideals get. So being the negative person I was back then. [Yup I was negative :L hard to believe?] I was close to realistic, and actually... I am quite proud of how I turned out. Of course there would always be things I would like, but one step at a time =] I guess that is how you grow, you achieve and how you succeed. Though... succeeding is a relative term. Most things are relative, so we have to remind ourselves time to time.

bwaaah.. anymore and I am gonna cry!! JKS!! hahah... It isn't easy for me to cry =/ maybe I should get that checked out. Strange. BUT! I have cried before! Yes, I am a male! I'll show you how I cry if you ask me nicely =] well time to sleep and then wake up, get scolded and then sleep =] maybe I should sleep while I get scolded... two cakes with one hand [don't like the idea of hitting birds with stones ... besides cakes are much more yummier ;) ] .... I want cake now =( hahah Tried to keep it short!!

[edit] yesterday was the day Apollo 13 left Earth for the moon. 21st was the moon landing [I won't be here to say that but I say now. Bow down to the mighty moon]
[edit]... yeahh.... I need sleep ^^|

I love bread

Yup it is true, I love bread. I can't think of any types of bread that I do not like. Besides the classic mouldy bread, every other type of bread is great! I love the smell of bread when it comes out from the oven/cooker/bakery. I like it when it is still nice and warm, or toasted lightly so that when you break it open it is nice and fluffy in the inside, and crisp and crunchy on the outer layer. I like it how you can just put it in your mouth and it'll taste slightly sweet. Most of all there are so many types, it is impossible to get sick of =]

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Guys.. have you ever played a really stupid game, a very useless and very crap game. Like if you were to rate games on a scale to 100, this one rates 2? Well.. I do.. and I do not know why. I just play the damn game and 1hr later you are doing the same thing. It is so frustrating yet you don't want to do work so you play the silly game. Shows how much determination I have hahah. Damn you holiday mood. *puff*

Hmm went flemington with mum. I hope thomas, adam and nick are having a magical time at the city watching harry potter 2? =P harry potter 6. Sorry MC for not being able to watch or do anything with you this holis. Hang in there for one more holiday! After this out the door we go! 7days a week 6 hrs a day =P gotta sleep you know? xD

And I would like to second Adam's blog post [if i may =P] Emotions are really lost in translation. No.. Meaning is lost due to overuse. I guess that is the flaw with the english language and most probably every other language. However.. over the past 17 and a bit years, the way we speak really does evolve. I am quite amazed how new words can be spreaded as well. eg "buzz" sentence: the death of MJ is the buzz around here. I heard that a year before it was said on Sunrise.. Another word would be nong. However.. I am not sure if it existed before i started using it. Let's just say I did create it, within the next 2 yrs other people start using it. [I don't think there is a point to this... I don't remember] ^^|

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I hate this.. I have seen it before, and acting in such a manner never works out. It gets really ridiculous sometimes. I guess everyone goes through it once in their life time, but still... being narrow minded and ridiculously stubborn will not change anything. I don't know if I should continue trying to persuade you, or stop. I am a little curious on how things will work out without my involvement. Do I make things worse or make them better? No one can answer it, because there is no two situation the same and only one chance to make things right. Still... which one do I choose? I know if you listen to one small part, and be smart about it. It will be ok...

fancy that.

well... my mum went with my brother to shop for snow clothes [he is going tomorrow or something] anywho... they came back and mum goes to me "look what I got" (in chinese) then pulls out a ripcurl box. I went "oh wow, shoes?" Mum -"yeah, for you" and I was like huh?? takes out shoes and that is what it looks like =]
(wow .. that was a typical blonde like paragraph.)

clearly not the 5 billion dollar ones I put up on one of my posts. But hey, I don't have to buy shoes for so much anymore =] They were *drum roll* $20 ;) So suits me well =] I just hope those heels/souls won't bug me when I walk =P lols.. thought I'd tell that to everyone. Mums *shakes heads* more unpredictable than girls! hahaha

Question - What do I wear with it. Because school sports pants look funny =P

Got me good

You got me. These emotions are resurfacing again. The ones that I pushed down deep, locked up for a while, until I am ready to accept them... I can't... not now... not here... My head is spinning. When I am not thinking about what I am meant to be thinking about, you got me thinking about this. Every other thoughts that come with the day is brushed aside. These thoughts are not half the problem. The emotions are rising, and I feel them. So strong. Not... good.

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=S I have spent 2 hrs on this chair.. more now ^^| doing physics.. =( I haven't finished my daily dose either!! T__T not good at all. Most of the time is spent reassuring myself about my answers to these dot points. I hate forgetting.. I hate studying! hahaha I hate forgetting more... but.. anyways.. I don't have much to talk about.

Wait! haha I am cheeky =] You know how facebook sends notifications? Well they get sent to my junk mail, and when I was on my break I just read everything people wrote =P I don't reckon that is cheating... right? *puff* I am so tempted to go back to my old blogging style for today hahah oh wells no time anyways =] LUNCH!! yum ^^

sorry if the first part didn't make sense. it wasn't meant to =D

Thomas's influence spreads

It has extended to hanson as well, he gave me a whole blog post, no matter how short he made me make it, stingy, only lisa left now! Once all three have put up something written by me, something incredible will happen, I won’t tell you what or lisa won’t post something written by me.

Well, now that I have my entire blog post to myself there is something about me everyone has simply got to know, like if you don’t know it, you are missing out and the entire universe is gonna collapse on itself!

I can’t remember now…its ok that the universe will collapse, I never gave a time frame ok? Ok so everything is dinky danky doo.

15 minutes to write something meaningful…it isn’t enough time never never never. I will just post a joke which was told by Jamie – don’t care about copyright or whatever cos she stole it from khoi-

why should females be banned from getting driver's licenses?
because there's no road between the bedroom and the kitchen

cmon guys, you can laugh!!! You are in the safety of your own home, please laugh, if you don’t my reign of terror will end as I know it and I will go back to being normal ordinary boring Thomas with not blog contribution – lisa you better be reading and seriously considering my request! I have spend too long to be simply rejected!!!!

Hanson said yes straight away and so did adam, but since they are guys and act impulsively, I will give you the best part of 15 minutes, the time it is taking me to write this, wow, only used 8 mins so far.

Perhaps I will make a more meaningful blog post on hanson’s blog next time unless adam sees the light and allows me to write in his, which would be super duper.

Anyone out there who would like to please comment on the need for Thomas to play an increasing role in the development of the people’s blog, I break seriousness, it will be like 12 serious blogs and then my ridiculous one which will make you laugh and think “zomg…that thomas tran kid”

Yeah, I need the support of the online community, please, I have spent about 2 hours already – incredibly fun btw, don’t get me wrong, please please don’t get me wrong

By Thomas – hanson cut me short, I am pretty tall eh?


hanson - *shrugs*
[edit] note: This is his one and only time he will write on this blog =] I rkn if he wants to write something blog it ;) on YOUR page =D make life easier and more fun. Unless he shares his secrets on the net [which i highly doubt ;)] hahahaha we'll see about next time though =D

Yokata

(Angela's handy work) - I am sure she will upload her 200 pics later

Today's tanken centre was good. It wasn't any different or such.. but we got to know the teachers better, it was just a happy day I guess =] 15/07/09

felt like that =P mmm I'll keep it short. Well I skipped tutor horray! =] and didn't get full yelled at, at home.. on the phone however... that is a different story for another day. ^^| hontou ni yokata. Tanoshikata. Ureshii.

small blog, but big emotions :L

Glad

to person: I am glad you didn't drink like "some people"... I was actually proud that you were thinking ahead. I am sure you knew there were people who would look after the place if you did drink, but you were smart about it. So... I am glad you were smart and thinking ahead =P

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In response to Helene's blog haha

Yeah... I just think up of these stuff whilst I sleep :L pretty retarded... And look at the times that I blog... not normal people times hahah. 'bout BOYS: (please comment and correct me if I am wrong, but I am only one guy, no reliability and therefore no validity ;) senior science. See there is practical uses in the outside world... if you call this outside :L)


1) Females tend to think guys are pretty much horny 24/7. Well that is just impossible... if that were to happen then... they'd be worn out to the bone even if they didn't do anything. Okay realistically... "too horny" Well in some cases that is true. From all the guys that I know, and have met, their lives have pretty much revolved around their tiny **** :L. As you can see I am not a fan of this idea. I, personally, am quite traditional when it comes to girls [in a way- with the modern value of equality ;)] Gentlemen are my role models =] I like their tall protective nature. I read somewhere of how a gentleman would behave on the streets. Eg - If a man was going to eat with his lady friend and were walking down the street, the female would always be on the inside of the curb. The reason for this was so that the lady would not get wet from the cars that drove on the puddles. I also reasoned so that it is less dangerous for the lady =] HOWEVER! What happens after the dinner... I am not quite sure what happens. (after the table manners and taxi ride to his/her place) I tend to think that nothing happens, they walk them to their place, then say good night, a kiss on the cheek and wala! The night is done. Reality isn't that great =P For me... I tend to mix these values with modern values. So it gets confusing ^^|

2) ... is there a 2? Guys are just that simple in girl's minds :L mm for those couples who don't understand their b' [lover - gangsta talk] Guys are quite... unaware of things. As guys, we tend to be blunt and less delicate to situations that girls would normally be sensitive and great at. Eg. talking about emotions. Guys are bad at this, because they don't talk about their emotions with guy friends. It is (typical) cars, money, work, girls. People I know... It is less men talk, more fun.. and girls. Guys love their girls don't they =P. Yeah, guys won't be able to pick up your small gestures and tiny things unless you tell them. Talking to them is the best... maybe not. Getting a point to them on how you want things, straight and simple is the best way to communicate with them. ahaha. Talking to them too much is... not that great. Guys love their space, and being smuthered with talk and worry just bums them out.

3) I can't think of anything else.

But - Tips on how to make the right guy smile all the time. (ie. he is a good boy at heart)

- Don't put make up on. Seriously, why would you when he thinks you are the prettiest girl out there whatever you put on your face. Save the cash so he doesn't spend so much on ya ;)
- Be a little carefree. If something doesn't go to plan, don't chuck a psyche please! It only leads to arguments and a very tired boy
- Keep but with the small things, we won't notice it when it is there, but when it is gone we will miss it. We don't know what we are missing but we will feel it ^^|
- Refrain yourself from looking sexy when going out, look elegant and pretty. Sexy is for the bedroom, your boy wants YOU for himself, he doesn't want the world to see your mammaries and legs. Got it? ;)
- We like it when you are happy, so when we spoil you, make sure we spoil you with the right goods. I mean if you bought someone something that person doesn't like, doesn't that bum you out? I know I know, they should find out before right!? True, that's where you hint all that in ;)

That's about it for this super long blog. I need to change the layout.. someone wanna help me?? =] I am surprised people read my blog too lol. aww I could have slept in for an extra 20mins! :L (still hasn't touched fb =)

baaah tempted

mm I am so tempted to go on facebook. The reason why I stopped was so that I would spend more time on work.. .but when I am not doing work... I have nothing to do! :L So that's my dilemma.. not really. I can survive without it.

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Ja... Kim's 18 was heaps fun. She is so cute when opening the presents and talking about her presents LOLS!! "I am the best daughter" [trying to say I am the luckiest daughter =P] nobody is good under pressure =]

Tanken centre was decent, hontou ni itsu mo nihongo de hanaseru. Choto muzukashi kedo tanoshida. Yokata na. =] -translation- always talking in japanese. a little difficult but it was fun. horray =P something like that...

I shall talk about the male mind. Remind me =] In tribute to Helene's blog for me :L I feel like i owe that much to her for giving me such an awesome insight =]

she has a quick like like always

Oce again I am in debt to her... I am not sure what it was but at the moment it seemed that we helped each other. And I know, if I look any further/deeper I will question that statement. I may find that it was only me who benifited but ,... it is the small things right?Maybe... I guess it is still my fault after all. For being inconsiderate... Yes that would sum up the nurmerous mistakes I made best. Enough of this... I got to focus...

Just a little light reading today. I wrote that last night on my phone :L

wish I was rich =P

see this is the reason why I want to be rich.. but I know they won't last so no point =] umm.. i dunno.. they just look good to me, so thank you for uploading the pics on the net! =D I don't particularly want to wear them assuming it is very expensive. No touch but you can see.

to those who I talked to tonight. Sorry I was just getting the sh*tz. I know it is unreasonable to be mad.. I dunno... sometimes when I don't get my way [ie, don't talk so much therefore stop annoying me] I get annoyed lol... or in a pissy mood.

I am sure everyone knows I am not one to blow up often =] I normally just release it by letting it seep through my skin lols! It isn't easy to stay mad for me. *shrugs* I am very spontaneous when I am emotional though :L I do something then BAM! I realised it wasn't a smart choice then I regret it for 5 mins then I am normal again.

Best thing is to sleep it off or eat it off. [Of course gotta watch how much you eat] Unless it is being angry or super heated annoyed then these don't work, nor is it smart. I was going to bed and I got angry, I couldn't sleep for 3 hrs, and when I did. I had a very angry dream. hahaha bout it. till... thursday or wednesday night? depending.. Doesn't seem good.. This holiday is flying by!! and it is only monday! hahha I feel pressure already lols I need to shut up now and sleep.

Leave a smiley face on the plate for the cleaner.

Mmm where to start.
Is it weird if I don't like dairy products?? Like I can eat it without pulling a face if I had to.. but I prefer not eating dairy products. Like milk, cheese and yoghurt/yogurt [which is it?]... if I had a choice I would pick anything other than them. I have to force myself to drink milk, yogurt.. sour yogurt I terribly dislike, but the sweet ones they are ok. Again I have to make myself finish it. Cheese.. on its own, is very hard to do. Melted or with something worth eating is how I like it =P

You ask why would it be weird. My answer is: we were brought up with dairy food literally. When you are a baby what is the only food you can eat [when you just came out] you don't eat! You dont have teeth! You drink milk. I can't think of any food that is MEANT to be food other than milk. Do you get me? Milk is there to feed. Meat, vegetables they are here because we make them here... blah.. it is so hard to explain. Meat comes from animals, animals have other purposes other than feeding the hungry carnivores/omnivores. Same with vegetables. I can't think of anything else.. wanna help?

Well anyways, back to the point, milk's purpose is to feed... and yet I don't like it. Does that mean.. I don't get it either. You think up of a point to raise and we'll discuss =]

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Oh that's right. I quit facebook. Well... I am just not touching it =] Some people find it hard.. I don't know why. The only thing between you and facebook is a button. So simply get rid of the button! hahah see... that's how I operate. It is hard to hardcore it sometimes, so you work around it. I can't think of another example =/. A stupid one would be studying for exams. You look at how much you got to cover and you just don't want to study. But if you work through topic by topic, before you know it you are finished =] If you hadn't noticed, that is how you learn at school. Lol, using the facebook example, if you get distracted by msn or any internet things just disconnect the net.

Of course nothing can be achieved if you do not have determination, patience and unable to persevere =] but really... it isn't that hard if you really try.

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Extra note: Kerry Bickmore was cute when she cried on rove :L She is another pretty lady this world is home to =] I remember the first few times when she did the "news", she laughed half way through. Now she has become a pro at it =] (Y) good stuff.

mmm not going away on camp till next Monday so hold your parties and farewells till then =P I know you guys want to celebrate that I am away =P jks
o00o my body is aching from yesterday's squash =D fun! and I think I slept funny last night.. my neck is in pain too >=( maybe too much of mum :L jks. [for those who didn't get it... mum = pain in the neck (ie annoying somethings)]

lol... never done that before! haha explain myself to myself
till another time Distraction!

"Give me my son back!!!"

Has anyone seen "Changeling" if not, I recommend you to watch it. Trust me it is a good film. Clint Eastwood is a genius, I swear. Yup another Clint Eastwood film, but you gotta admit... they are pretty damn good. Million dollar baby, Gran Torino, Flags of our Fathers. [edit] They are really amazing.. what is more amazing is that he has helped produce and direct 30 movies, and starred in 60. He is 78... holy crap! Older than my grandmother.. and yet still making movies.. 0.o

Any who, Changeling is about a single mother who lost her son and the corrupt police is in desperate need to improve their reputations. So the police come to her in five months with a boy she does not recognise as her son. In hope that her son is still out there, she fights the police. It is her fight in search for answers and her son.

That is the gist of it without giving anything away. =] Seriously consider watching it, because I guarantee you, you will not be disappointed. I almost cried :L and I am not one to be easily moved by a movie =]

From this movie, I have gained a new respect for Angelina Jolie/Pitt [which one 0o] she was absolutely amazing in this film. Not in that sexy hot way that most people watch her movies for, but in a way where I respect her for her talents.

Lols... find it strange that I would be talking about a movie? I do... but it was that amazing. The experience was ruined by constant distractions too. Three times did we pause, eat dinner, leave the house and yet... Well you get the point. I loved the film. WATCH IT and join me struck by awe =]

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Alright, today went to play squash. Woke up at 9am left at 9:45, got there at 10 and played till 11. It was 16 intese games. I played 8, 4 against my dad and 4 against my younger brother. You do not know how tiring it can get. Haven't played in a while, and so unfit. My dad won all his matches I belive, and I won against my brother. But in all it was a good session. Felt good to sweat once again. Feel the burn in my muscles and hit a ball. It was fun =] Next week I'll beat my dad ;)

For now, that'll be it. Later tonight maybe? *shrugs*

pet like cat abandoned =O

Once upon a time there was a cat called Tuxedo. She didn't really have a home, yet, this was the closest to home. The people were fair, and nice. She was fed twice a day, often gets petted and occasionally sneaks into the house for a few seconds.
After a long history, of 8 months or so, with the family; the people suddenly kicked her out. Taking her far away and never wanted to be seen again. Tuxedo, being a cat, of course didn't know what was happening. She didn't do anything wrong. Maybe meowing too much to gain attention and wanting more love. But that was all she was guilty of. What did she do to be kicked out?

The answer was, that the people didn't want her there. Apparently she didn't eat all she was given and that her consistant meowing was bad....


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righteo, in a situation like that, what is a person to do? The cat is in the cage and meowing it's heart away. Not the innocent hello meow, but a cry for help and freedom. We aren't taught to deal with such a situation. Do you let it out of the cage? or do you leave it in the cage so it can be taken far away and never to be seen again? Letting it out means the cat stays and the people who trapped it won't be happy. Leaving it in though, means a heavy heart and sadness. Is it animal cruelty to kill a stray cat? Or is it animal creulty to leave it on the streets?

In life, we aren't taught to deal with this situation. Where there IS no win win situation. In fact, there is no win in any of it. It is like "can't live with women, but can't live without women". However, the cat in this case isnt wanted at all....

blahh... just a little disheartened =/

City was good yesterday, however, Bruno... I personally did not like the "movie". Maybe I am not insensitive enough to people's thoughts. I dunno... the idea of toying with someone's real emotions about the situation is sort of... degrading everyone associated with the movie. I don't know how to explain it. However, on the bright side there were some funny bits =]

That's all folks *warner brother's theme song*

nostalgic day?

lols... didn't go to school but the weirdest thing happened today.
I woke up, and everything was as if it was 5 years ago. Of course the furniture and stuff [new stuff] were still there.. but the atmosphere of the living room, felt... in some way like 5 -10 years ago... strange?

mm then mid day came, about 1 o'clock.. I went outside to take the clothes down from the clothes hanger? Anyways, after doing so, I sat down on the steps and just looked out. Everything was as if it was the morning at about 6 ish. The grass was green and wet. The breeze was cool and refreshing. The sky partially covered with uncertain clouds. Trees were bare and looking cold. ... how else do I describe a morning? The thing was... it was 1 o'clock.. and it LOOKED like morning!! I was about to fall asleep on the steps.

I got up from where I was and just bumbed around in the house. I didn't touch work... I didn't worry about work or study. Didn't cross my mind... isn't that a little strange? hmm =/ maybe my mind is reverting back to it's childish self. Strange...

Oh.. one more.. I went to tutor... and it was polynomials. We have done it all before.. I seriously questioned if it was 2009, or if I was in yr 12. It was getting way to freaky, cos I swear we have learnt the same things before. I swear... *shrugs* maybe going to schoool is good for my mind =P

just wanna say

hmm it is late, I wouldn't per say I am extremely happy, assuming people write blogs when they are happy. So yah! AND!! I am in no shape nor form depressed =] I look lonely cos I am mostly on my own anyways?... How do you not look lonely when you are on your own??

Anyway, my topic .. my point in writing this is to thank MC for worrying and asking how I was on the train. Honestly, I was really that tired. By Guildford I swear that if I was given an extra 10seconds of peace I would have been asleep. So you people know, I don't sleep easily in bed and esp. on public transport. So thats saying something.

- update on my "condition" I am fine? Not super sayan yet =P mm more sleep, food, more food, and less study? =P oh I believe I gave my second donation of blood last night. That is why I was light headed .. and a bit unco today =] (I did apologise in advance =])

OH! on the train this morning, I got the BEST seat on the train. Like one seat of completely removed so there was a huge gap btw one chair and the one in front. Anyways, all of the ones before it was taken... so naturally I sat down in the seat with huge leg space. Before I could reconsider I was already seated and comfortable. So i stretched my feet and enjoyed my time =] It didn't occur to me that I would look strange with that much space but didn't give a crap.
Anyways, Cabra came, and Thomas had no choice but to sit in front of me (two leg spaces away) It was nice to be able to stretch that much and just loosely slide into the seat. *shrugs* I don't really know why I keep a blog anymore =P

colour it red

note: I have achieved painting water red.

Apologies in advance, I may be a little tired tomorrow =]

WOOH!! bring on the meat!

Unproductive weekend =/ but it can be handled I hope ^^| I did do me senior but didn't finish. *shrugs* can't be buggered.

I am sure people know the power of music. They do wonders... and for those who do not reckon music does anything for them, then I am pretty sure they haven't a) listened to it properly b) haven't found the right music. You must understand that most of the times it depends on your mood for some types of songs but there are others that will just lift you out of everything and anything.

lols just random. I'll leave it short then.

low down on the situ ; )

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The end =]

oks, well the fever died down, headache has reduced, and back pain pops out now and then. but i am getting back my appetite and will be uber once again by tomorrow =]


ALSO

Jay Chou people! I hope you guys are having HEAPS of fun! Better have so much fun, that I feel it =P Try not to get raped, or felt up, or anything and stay safe =] Enjoy it =D i mean you paid a lot for it =]