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eh... well I finally decided to write on my blog.
then realised I dont have anything to talk about =D

I can talk about Emmy Rossum again.. but I dont think you guys would appreciate it as much as I would.

hum he ha.

well speeches..? nah.. lets talk about something boyish like... ;) handball =]

it is getting hecktic now. lols or RAD :L
it not only is a good way of releasing your stress but shows off your skills ;) well if you play enough, you find out that some people have some weaknesses ;) or habits. eg. Leon loves to drop it close to you, even if it is not in his square ^^|

yup!! minh chau this blog IS boring =]

back to handball, you guys should watch it sometimes.. some people make AMAZInG shots it is like tennis but so much better cos thhere are more people!!! =P

that is my daily rant....
how about a mysterious statement to mysterious people.
1. wth! i did but i dont, just like little girls + gossip *puff*
2. i am sick of this!!
3. i do not understand your actions, you dont even understand them. why not think bout how you do deal with stuff instead
4. please come to australia, and drive me crazy =] i sorta need that
5. huh?
6. okie dokie mr pokie
7. you soon will find out, but it better be soon, otherwise ima chomp you up!!

seven people, or is it? =O
nb: to those reading this - you will never guess who each person is, BECAUSE! i prolly wont remember by the time you ask me, and your assumptions will lead you to your down fall. for all i know i could be telling myself all of this. so think wisely and step away from the dog!

yumm...

hmmm

well yesterday was quite a horrible day... woke up at 5 to do maths... went to school with little rest. studied quite a bit [not at recess and little at lunch] cant handle that much. did so much in study period.. and i knew it all.. well i thought i did =S

anywho, period 6 came and i felt very unprepared.
soon test was over, and i have a guaranteed less than 60% i cant say i completely bombed it.. but i have a feeling i didnt pass it =S we'll see i guess.

got home, completely bummed out. then started on english. horray ==" from 6 to 12, bar one toilet break and a 20min dinner, i sat at my desk doing english. clearly, i am not a normal person who can finish the speech in 2 hrs. i didnt even procrastinate!

so by 12am my head was mushy, eyes felt very heavy, and thought i would just melt onto the ground and wake up later. 12.30am i finished finally.. and headed striaght to bed =]

the only good news yesterday was that tutor was canceled cos he was sick ;)
and guess who slept in!? 9 hours of beautiful sleep =D

so really, atm i feel like i can jump over the moon and fly into a star and out shine it :L [maybe not] and that i want to sleep even more hahaha
but i know my body wont let me sleep anyways =P

3 hrs later and still on this page - neglected :L i wasted today wooh! weather is too horrible to get out and about =(

watched way too many emmy rossum stuff :L

yumm =D

hot or not?
pretty or shitty?
beautiful or pitiful?

I go for pretty, cute and beautiful. hot and sexy will disappear soon enough =D

reunited love for emmy rossum - >
soooo pretty right?? I was looking through a magazine after tutor [waiting for my brother...] and DAMN!! I'm in LOVE :L

seriously... if you were flicking through a magazine and just waiting for something to jump at you. SHE is what hit me between the eyebrows and kept me spinning. hahaha



look at her... she just makes evey dress look fantastic and HOT ;) damn! look at those curves hahaha

but after wiki-ing her I have learnt:
that she can sing happy birthday in 12 different keys O.o that is.. =O 6 different languages.. she is Jewish [no wonder...] and she is suuuuuper cute! :L
she is gluten intolerant, and allergic to wheat =O
"what's so cute bout that?"

"She revealed to MTV News that she is allergic to wheat after MTV News gave her a cupcake on-camera to celebrate her 22nd birthday; she was only able to eat the frosting.<sup>[22]"

she was too kind and ate the frosting.. I know some people would have thrown it out. see cute ^^

born in 1986, in America, I think! I have a chance ;) hahaha jks.. i just cant help but admire her beauty and style

however... if you look her up on Google images, her smile is a little different to that in these pictures. the ones with no teeth, are not only just as beautiful, but they look similar to someone I "know" of... I have thought she had a pretty nice smile.. but i didn't know it was THAT nice :L

witht he picture I have, she looks like Jennifer Love Hewitt, but hey. Emmy Rossum melts me away =]

I have gained my determination =)
thank you Ms Rossum

ps: sorry bout the change of fonts... blogger sucks =P


to emmy: i hope you stay as beautiful, kind, and elegant forever =]</sup>

bhahaahahah

guess what... looks like i DONT have anyone reading this!! =]
the views are coming from me ;]

anyways.

what happened today?
mm english results and maths assessment. what total and utter failure. ruined my day, but physical exercise gets me back up on my feet. Though my heads a little light due to lack of oxygen. I may have stuffed my ankle again, and life as a HSC student can't get any more lonelier than this. And by that, I mean it as a good thing ;], as in there is only one way to go,
and that is Up ^
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bah.. but what has really seemed to have kicked my head over the moon, and into a pile of cow shat, is the idea that there is only.. 4 weeks till trials, and then 6 weeks after that till hsc is about to start. That is 4 weeks of learning one year's worth of material. ie. 4 essays a creative. (mind you there are techniques, quotes, examples haha everything IN an essay to remember). and THAT is just for english. my small brain cant remember that much. Hopefully after the holidays [intensive study] i will be up to date, and ready to kick ass for trial and hsc. it is quite depressing how one holiday is used up for studies.

And the BOS tries to make up for it by giving us 3 months holiday. What is the point of cramming one point in time, then completely forgetting and partying for the next. We are such machines.

All in all, we are half way there ;] don't lose hope yet [for those who did crap in assessments eg. me]

I have finished complaining =]

ps. I do not know why i am blogging at such a crucial time
to do: english speech, maths 3u study, snr science assessment and assignment

ideal woman

yesterday i thought i would just jump into it. but i now rkn people will be offended by it.
however.. there has only be 4 views ;] so what the heck. atm i am feeling really... hsc-ed. a mixture of confusion, depression, and many emotions you can think of, all muddled up due to one thing. hsc.

anyways my ideal woman would be:
- elegant
- has a nice smile, and laugh [not cackley
- motivating
- captivating
- considerate
- compassionate
- understanding
- open minded

and the list may go on. but note that physical beauty isnt on the list. yes a nice body and a pretty face is a plus. but it only goes as far as the bedroom. what happens outside of the bed?
also, being a person of many misfortunes and literally built by misunderstandings, this girl... is gonna cop a lot of shiz from me.

lately.. i seem to be getting in trouble for things i dont even do ==" for the record, and because i cant tell people straight without being judged, i dont like anyone atm. girls to me at the moment, are just.. trouble.. if i do like them i get introuble. i talk to them likfe friends, i get looks. ... [end]

baaah... school life is quite lonely now =/ i can talk to girls, guys are too ignorant to understand. so it is just me at the table, surrounded by groups, but not part of any.

i dont know if my friendships are still solid. it isnt really anything i can do. i have ignored these judgemental thoughts, and looks. but in the end, it still comes back. for a while before, home was the best place...

balance... =/ it is so difficult to balance home life with school life. for me, it has been good at home and bad at school. or good at school and bad at home. strange =/

i give up for today

simple things

it seems to me, that as we grow older we dont get any wiser [at this stage at least]
this need for knowledge, is not aiding in the process of growing up.
this notion of "growing up" in society's sense, is taking responsibility, having the knowledge to work, and to be able to make intelligent decisions, if not, just decisions.

my idea of growing up. it simply being smart and "wise"enough to know...
- that him/herself, is not as significant as they think they are
- that life, is unfair and fair. unfair for you, and to others [ie, you are both in favour, and out?]
- that not matter how hard you try, not everyone will love/hate you.

simple enough?


~ i must say.. some people can be really stupid. stubborn.
nb: i will talk about my ideal woman ; ]

can people not see the consequences of their actions?... that was a stupid question =/
baaah.. but small normal things... small casual things are ok, to ruin a friendship.. even IF it wasnt a strong one... that's differnet right?

*puff* it is late, past my curfew, and tired. and ... tired

mhm

well.. today was a good day. previous problems and issues seemed to be pushed aside without my dramatic speech and thoughts. i just sat back and enjoyed the ride. today was an unbelievably good day..

however,.. it seems my own philosophy has proven itself true. nothing really is enough... is it..?
it isnt like i chose to be sad and depressed about soemthing as stupid as this. it just happened.. and it still does happen.

there seems to be something missing. is it a beating heart? i feels hollow... i do not understand though..what will ever fill such a deep hole? i refuse to see the company of friends as a bandaid over deep wound, but a hole slowly filled with concrete. it has reduced in size.. takedo. it still.. i wouldnt say hurts.. but

that contributes to the missing.. but there is something else.. and with such a huge distraction and such a huge, harsh world we must face... we either should have figured this out already, or not find out about this till we are mid-aged.

koi ka? i dunno. but the idea of how i didnt want a gf. how it would be just a mess with everything going on. knowing myself, and how people behave during times like these, no relationship is stable. there is no perfect balance in such a relationship at this time. we are way to immature... yes, we can all make mature decisions and what not. but i am refering to our experiences. our extent in exploring ourselves, our lives, and our world... is small ... tiny, unworthy of mention. dont think you are excluded. assuming you will be stuck on such matter you will not become a true adult.

to be honest.. do you really want to be an adult? .. i am side tracking..

missing pieces. gf. i am not sure. i want... to just disappear... live. but disappear. not away from friends. but away from the hsc, and study. there is one of my thoughts are that work. is quite money based.. sure there are jobs that do not reward any profit of money. but they are the repercussions of such a money hungry world. and us, the children are sucked into such a cruel world. once they are born, they are exposed to the worst thing ever on this world [other than man kind] - money -

anyways ... lately.. i have been yerning for.. lady company. i would love to just lay under the clouds on a warm day, searching the blue sky for some meaning. with her just there next to me... then what happens? [what has this world done to me...?] exactly.. what happens next? a relationship isnt just staring at clouds. it isnt about lying there are just enjoying each otherr's company. that is a fairytale that lasts far less than you would like. reality is that a relationship requires effort put into sustaining it. i dont know if i want to be in the half of the relationship....

i really do not know.
are you hungry? i do not know
can you go tutor 2 hrs earlier than normal? i dont know
are you really 17? i do NOT know.
so what is going to happen next? i do not know
what shall we do now? i do not know.

do you get the point already??
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i do not know

sleep is the cure for more than you will ever believe. never forget the importance of sleep [relaxation].