やぱ子供な

だれでも聞くない。子供からな。

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grown out of those socks too quickly.

Should I wait for the socks to fit me, or should I fit me into the socks?

That is the question.

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DUMMMM duuuumm dummm!!!! <- guitar strums

inochi ga saiko!

hmm... I think I know why I like bruises. Ok let's take a step back and I'll explain. Do you know the feeling you get when you do exercise or something and your muscles ache for the next say.. 3 days? I like that feeling too =] Well everyone knows that when you exercise you release happy endorphins [correct me if I am wrong], so, naturally I would like doing exercise. However, for me not only do I like sports but I like the aching as well. It is a little bit of psychology that Nick taught me. Something about connections or rather. Anywho, when my muscles ache it reminds me of the endorphins and make me happy -> and when I ache [ie. bruises] it makes me happy too.

~ or you can just say I like to feel pain >=]

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Any who, I have a big announcement. I finally got one set from my dad in squash. I think we played about 12 games each haha my brother came and completely thrashed him >=] mm I think my days disappeared like that...

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" I have learnt many things because of my past, because what is happening, and because what will happen. There is no point in the story, but there is a meaning in each line. 'Take your time' is one of them - it is now that you truly enjoy and appreciate life before a new one comes. "

buggered.... -_________-

and yet I am able to write this.

Well ladies and zentlemen. I am.. buggered.

The End...

jitsu wa... tsukareta...

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It has been a long time since I last stepped onto the battlefield. It was nice while the peace lasted... but everyone knew that war was inevitable. The treaty for peace was voided the moment the time has passed. War was never pretty... but this time it was unimaginably ugly... after weeks or even months of peace the war was about to begin.

It was late in the morning, getting close to afternoon before the enemy lines were raided. It was a do or die situation. If the raid was not done, we would have... perished. The plans were quite mixed and very unorthodox. A new general was directing the troops to victory. This is the only war that can be won. The raid was successful, and the largest enemy base was cleaned. There was still enemies hiding, so it was necessary to get the rag, soap and water out - the three elements.

1 hour after midday: the largest area has become our territory. There was still the dining, study, the legendary three bedrooms and the frightfully horrible kitchen... There was no time to lose.

Everything moved out of the way, as the heavy machine sucked all specks of dust and dirty and what not, visible to the human eye. . The powerful tool, eliminated the enemies everywhere. Once again to officially conquer the land the three elements were called.

After a long tiring 3 hours, the ground forces were conquered. There were yet the naval and the air to capture. So the troops were sent to get rid of all that gets in my way.

And thus, 4 hours past after the beginning of it all. The floor was sparkling clean, dishes washed, laundry dried...

- titled: The Cleaning War

Not a matter of black or white

Firstly i want to apologise <- i can never spell it the right way the first time =="
apologise about the cbox, it has disappeared into the bottom of the ocean. An ocean of words =P

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I think feminists and malists [if there is such a thing] got it wrong. Horribly wrong. Males and females, or females and males [for you pro female], as genders looking at how "powerful" they are they both are low. None are more powerful than the other, none are any better than each other. We are humans. Not, we are both humans - as in "because we are both humans we are equal". Humans are horrible, despicable creatures; capable of great, even frightfully great amounts of things. I mean humans can achieve lovely things, productive and even helpful things, but it is the amount of horrible things that will never be able to be balanced by the good things. <- that however is a different topic ;]

As I said humans, as individual genders, yes we are equal, but nothing to be proud about because we are low. However, IF the genders "work together" - how cliché - then the question to the 'gender' battle to see who is more powerful, is answered. It is the relationship between the two that matters. There is always a struggle between who do what amount of work. See if there were understanding between both parties, it wouldn't matter what amount of work is done by each, it is because they act as one unit.

Ok example. Washing dishes. Many couples argue who should do the dishes. Saying "I did it last night, you do it tonight ok?" and sometimes the answer is "yes sounds reasonable i'll do it tonight as long as you do it tomorrow night." This is the easy answer. Sure this works and every is "happy" but... ~ ok you must be thinking Hanson WTH are you on about this works! What more is there? They aren't fighting right? All is fine right? ~ my answer is no.

Even if they were fighting, they still don't see that there are dishes to do. No matter what happens, someone has to do them. They forget to take a breath, step back and look at the bigger picture. The fact is that the dishes isn't their only problem. It is work, cleaning the house, washing the clothes, making food and even who holds the control to the tv. What I am TRYING to say is that there is work to do, so stop fighting over petty things and do it.

But the question was WHO does it!??!?

Firstly, why does it matter? BECAUSE.... because I am busy too. But so is he/she - it does not take long to do it. [ok this can go on forever if I do this] but who does it really is up to you and the other person/people. Understanding. If all parties have understanding, there will be no question of this. This is the basic knowledge for parents - but they lose it once the rules change. The parents must wash the dishes because the children cannot. Right?

If other people were busy for some reason, and you are free wouldn't it be right for you to do it? However, people have too much pride and are too lazy so they use more effort to pick a fight so that other busy person/people do the work. If one person is free go do it. If others are not [relative to you, of course] then you do it. WHY?!? Why not?

This is how life should be... this is how this life... lifestyle should be.

Though there is a power struggle between females and males, the answer to it is not making females better than males. The answer is making both parties understand. You have no idea how much understanding goes. So please understand =]

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That being said. I want to tell everyone esp. my close friends thank you. By just being there/here/where I have learnt a lot and have understood many things about people and myself.

Also, I don't care what you say - who YOU marry is of importance to me!! Why? because when I get married how is my wife meant to talk to your wife if she horrible, and how am I meant to talk to your husband if I cannot communicate to him? SO!! please!! choose wisely, thoughtfully. There is nothing more important than choosing who you are with. Why? because they are an influence on you, on your children and those around you. AND!!! IF YOU CHOOSE SOMEONE CRAP and it is someone who doesn't like me... it means I don't get to see you =(

understand!?!?

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Ps. I am working on a speech I wish to voice out =] Well I can imagine that I would speak it. Because: 1 I don't have the courage to say it in front of many people =P

2: you might kick me off my podium 1mins after I start =] hehe but I do wish I could say it out loud.

Cos it is an important topic, and it is 100% Hanson "lame"

Till next time.

Ps. I have checked off 2 of things off my list for things to do. And tonight Another 2 things will disappear =]

that's how the cookie crumbles

We have a greater sense of responsibility to other rather than family.

or

we believe each other so much we believe that without their help we'll be fine and be able to do it.

or

they really dont have time to help.. so why are they sitting there watching tv

or

maybe they are so ignorant about some stuff they dont see the picture at all. They say look at the big picture, but you need to look at the picture in the first place.

or

... I cant think of any more positive/optimistic statements
it is just pushing me away

a few days ago, I re-thought over my thoughts, and considered not to go ahead with it, because without me no one... will help my parents.
[ps. i promised people i will not be disappearing any time soon SO!!!! I am not going to die. Even if aliens abduct me i will return to earth and get me a pretty girl. Even if i get hit by a truck i will not die until i get a pretty nurse. Even if i lose in my ninja/samurai battle... I will not lose unless it is a pretty girl.... you got the point =] I promise]

I ... I dont know what it is.. I dont have enough courage? I dont have enough anger? I dont .. why... i have been more than patient. I really dont understand. They have even readjusted themselves to suit "them", when "they" dont deserve it.

to be called lazy... no. That pushed it. unhappy about being called lazy? <- how stupid. you have called yourself lazy many times before, why start now? [you ask]
omaera touzen wakanai kara, damare.

It isnt fair to call them lazy because... compared to me and definitely to "them" they arent lazy at all. I dont understand why i had to start trying during the exams period. maybe because help left before exam period. because during exam period "they" have excuses. but "they" really dont understand.

I say this as if i understand. I am sure i dont understand, but i understand more than them.



bhavya where is my punching bag you were meant to get me half a year ago T_________T


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4 hrs to study computing. or shall i sleep less and study more. I think i shall study more and sleep MUCH less.

poof

The next four days are gonna be tough.


Are you ready?


for less sleep? less food?


No time to stop... ready or not, you gotta load your rifle aim and shoot.

124

last post was 123th post

Well.. Let's see.

Why am I up? To tire myself so i can sleep

Why can't I sleep? I studied... and for some reason I can only study properly at night - in the garage making funny noises and singing to myself or humming a out of tune random song.

Mmm well studies are going pretty smoothly for maths =P there is physics and computing i ought to think about. One at a time? The fact that I am leaving myself 1 day to study physics is stupid. So I have started learning and going through some phys before.. but I am not loving it as much as I am loving calculus [atm].

Well it got to the point where, there was no time to stress. Be it relaxing and forgetting stressful emotions or study and forget stress cos you're concentrating. Stress is just a load of poop. What use does it do? So despite not studying for a large portion or my morning, even after waking up at 8, productivity is the key.

Productively work, productively eat, productively play.

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Question: Do you guys remember what you were feeling at the end of year 11? And throughout yr 12?

I do.. I remember how intense it was [relatively]. And how lost everyone has become to you. How it was only you sticking up for yourself - because 1. no one could help you 2. everyone was too busy to think of a way to help you

It was THIS after THIS after THIS. I guess uni is similar except - you work on your own terms. Depending on your course you are restricted to how far your "terms" can go but nevertheless, you still want to fit more into your already busy timetable.

- it is late and I have no idea what I am on about =P

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Well what did I achieve today?

I went lemon hunting [seriously...] I got a looooonnng stick and smacked the lemon tree a little and, as if falling from the gods, golden lemons dropped and rolled by my feet.

I re-did 2 past papers [that I spent 2 days on]

I did a test paper under time conditions and became ecstatic at how far I have come within a matter of a week.

I had a picnic with my family [on out lawn, sitting on some chairs staring at the garden, in the sun, with the colours of green and blue contrasting each other]

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I'll back onto this after exams but..

I wish I could tell you, show you, what it is that I am feeling. It isn't easy to describe, but put trust in the two feet you stand on and hold firmly onto what you believe in with your two arms and walk towards your goals. It's okay. It'll be all okay.

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music me!!! <-----------<<<
music arrow that is music-ing me to death

fingers cold

Life as a warrior:

I have to be strong. How else will I be able to face the ones I want to protect when I cannot with stand minor injuries, when I cannot do minor tasks? It has been a while since I was last hurt. This world has been quite peaceful after the feud. The need for me has become something of a desire rather than a necessity. My senses are not as sharp as before. However, the instincts are still all there.

Yes, I got injured today. Minor compared to those I got in the feud. My mind tells me to run, however, my body stood still, and continued. This mind has become weak. Adapting to a life without injuries... My mind spoke "Thank goodness it is cold and your skin felt numb. Otherwise you would have felt real pain." Blood gushed out and it watched curiously as if it has never seen such a thing before.

Intriguing.

This life without need for my swords and armour. It truly is intriguing...

Study = Crazy mind

"There are many worlds out there. Not just in a physical and quantum sense, but also a mental and different dimension sense. Quantum physics tells us that there is a very high, if not definite, chance that there are different worlds. There is a sense of time, in which a second before is a different world to "now" and different to one second later.

There are many examples in which we use apply a sense of different worlds when we say "society". Music society, japanese society, commerce society etc. These are different worlds.

Worlds inside of worlds inside of worlds.

World, ie. Earth, world, ie a country compared to another, world, inside that country etc.

There is one more... There is a world in our own heads. We perceive everything slightly or completely different to others. "All is one, one is all" [familiar?? =P ] We, each person, are a different world ourselves, however, we are what makes up THIS world, society, and these societies make up the Earth and what you perceive it as Earth.

definition of world: http://www.google.com.au/search?hl=en&source=hp&q=define:+world&aq=f&aqi=g1g-s1g8&aql=&oq=&gs_rfai=

As you can see, like many words, world has many definitions. <- hohoho

- said enough -

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I feel like an old man... Every exam period I turn into a blob. Always tired, always hungry/eating and if I could I would slide around the house like a snake. My life is guided by tests. <- hohoho

I think I have found my idol haha. Dr Karl Kruszelnicki... I have my reasons. Reminds me of someone I have met before... well a few people. =]

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To do [after exams.. T___T If I survive]:

- guitar

- piano

- camp

- draw

- plan jap and korea trip.

- tell parents about jap and korea trip T___T

- not die from telling parents cos mum is planning shang hai trip soon... =S

- not die from uncle making me go over to shang hai

- visit japan [in my head]

- see thomas

- mega buff up [for the ladies] *hyuu*

- play a little bit of games

- read manga

- watch K-on!

- watch my boss my hero

- watch anime

- go to Adam's, David's and Thomas's [and maybe Hanson's house] (alphabetical order)

- run around like a crazy man

- eat lots and lots and lots .... and lots.

- clean my clothes for the next sem [it might look new if I do]

- see friends and eat friends.. I mean SEE FrI3nD5 <- just to distract you =]

- de blah! like.. I better! otherwise I am gonna explode and there shall be no more YOU.

- crash the warehouse with a forklift

- clean up desk and room ^^| <- it is embarrassing to even think about how much I need to clean up.

4 weeks to do all this (Y)

I am a greedy boy =] I want so much. Though it isn't the typical things... it is still quite a lot of things. Lazy and greedy. That's me =]

[What a horrible world my mind lives in. If it weren't for the true would to save me from myself... what a different life I would have led.

Engrave this knowledge into my brain because starting over is too painful. ]

Close your eyes

Lose yourself in the melody.

Hear the note vibrate in your ears, feel the piano at your fingertips. Let the violins bring you from the edge of insanity to a place your heart feels content.

It is never too late to lose yourself in music.

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The war has been hard on everyone. For many their lives will stop at that point in time. Let me take your hand, and take you away from this place you call home. Take a quicker step, and leap out of your monotone pace. Don't pause, just follow me.

To a distant place you have never, in your wildest dream, would have thought of going. The clouds so white, the sky so blue, come and run with me in the fields of wonders.

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Don't be scared, I am here for you.

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Come on, let's go, without a moment to wait, taking small steps and then strides. I am here for you, so follow.

In step we'll walk towards the future, to the land we will never believe will come true.

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And so they walked towards the path of which bright them light and warmth. You can hear their footsteps still echo in the halls of greatness and wonders.

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Ehehe... This isn't just random.. ok maybe it is random but it is good. I am, as minch chau might put it, having an ear"gasm" right now hahaha.

My heart is pumping with music, the notes, the echoes. I reckon... IF my ears could walk, they would be flying away right now. Towards the melodies, and chasing the sounds that stole my ears.

lololol =]

Faaaaaaaannnnnttaassstic ;]