Ha, how great would i be as a doctor. Not intellectually.. i mean i would never be able to be a doctor for that simple fact but emotionally and i guess mentally [in a way] How easy it is to turn on and off. how simple it is not to fear. All great qualities doctors would learn.
However, it is a strength of character that allows them to return to becoming human. Let's find out.
Anywho, everyone must think how weird and strange I can be huh? I HIGHLY doubt anyone reads this anymore but... before you judge you must understand a few things.
- do you trust yourself as much as I trust myself? and I mean not now.. but in the past and in the future? let me clarify myself later.
- Do you consciously "feel" the notion of a memory? For me they are like dreams. They happened but it doesn't seem like it did. It is a blur.
- How much do you think about these memories?
Ok clarification:
As tomorrow is as a blur as it is yesterday I can only trust yesterday me to have made the right decisions to guide me through today and aid with tomorrow. Still don't get it?
Nothing is on my first level of my mind. In order to remember something I have to try hard to remember. So when I am feeling lazy or put on the spot I rely on yesterday me to have made the correct decisions.
dame da na.
I guess in away I am talking to myself. I know many people won't read this junk today. but in maybe a few months or years later I will come across my blogs and say DAMN this bloody guy has some crap in his head but understands me. *sigh* this notion of me.
ma ii darou...
hehe I must have a ninja body or something. I heal mega quick. so fast that i cant even show off the war scar.
それでまたね。
