Hishashi

mmm long time no write haha been a long while, since jan?

ehh well I just wanted to say I am quite glad I wrote blogs.

I know it is definitely not time to procrastinate, but I can't think any other time better than "now" and by now I mean anytime I am on blogger. [which means I am not on it very much]

Probably different for other people, but when I read back I feel like I was talking to my future self, giving advice and telling me, "We have been through this. Stop fretting. You know, you just cant put it into words or sort your thoughts right now. Sit down. Stop fiddling. Take a few deep breaths and bloody get what you need to get done."

And thus, my solitary attitude towards quite a few things. There are ups and downs to this, but there is no point for wishing for anything because this is how it for me. Why fight it, when you can mold it?

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I would love just a week - but it doesnt work that way huh?

oh wells.

We do what we can

Different circumstance different thought process different lives

nevertheless the main point is survival. Mental survival, physical survival and psychological survival. As an engineer I have no basis or proof in what I say - only experience and constant contemplation.

We do what we can. We do what we will. We do what we "should".

Enough said.

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well got back from Japan and Korea and it was the bomb! The highs and the lows; all learning experiences all good memories I wish never to forget.

I miss being there. The food, the culture and the people.

But I will say this. Without the friends that went with, it would not have been as fantastic. In fact it would not have been anywhere close to fantastic.

So to my close friends - I love you guys.

don't do anything stupid or else I'll do something stupid and then... well it is stupid =]

sou kamoshiran

Maybe I am a strange kid.

There will always be failures in one's life. Those who achieve none for a single task will get an applause, and naturally, those who get many get laughed at. However, I want to believe that I am the sort of person who will see failures as stepping stones, and a unique experience no-one can experience. I wish to believe that the more the failures the stronger the person. I mean how strong must that person be to be laughed at, over and over again, yet be able to try and try again.

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I am many things, yet I am not completely all how I desire to be.

Dear Readers of the 21st century,

In a society where there are more than just one world, where these worlds are not visible to the human eye, and can only be observed by our own actions and emotions; we as humans have a responsibility to do what humans do best. Learn.

In such a place with so much chaos happening around us. Truly, ignorance is bliss. But once that ignorance is lost, there is nothing we can do to regain it. Yes, it is scary. Like you can't believe, knowing chaos is scary. That is why we humans try to avoid the chance of learning. But that is stupid... as much as we might fear it, there are more greatness that come out of it.

Think about it. Love.

It applies to love in every way. No matter how many times you get rejected, you still want to do what you did right before you got rejected. You want to be with the person you like, even after being dumped, after a period of time, you want to feel that way again because it just felt that good.

I think, as people with this knowledge we cant let our minds sit in the pigsty it is in already. Get that pig to do some exercise. Strengthen your mind and heart. Know that it is scary to walk into worlds you do not know about, but it is much better than being scared.

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I know...

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We all walk at a certain speed. We all get lost. It isn't time to rage, embrace it as much as you humanly can - try to accept what you got, because there is very little much we can do about it but embrace it.

- YAWN- if it doesn't make sense, sorry

amai kamo

hmm since I don't sleep till about 1.30 anyways

I may as well get out some of the thoughts out.

Well I do think about random stuff people don't normally think about =]

So... ehh well why can't it be like the olden times. Things used to be simple.

We'd fight over land, fight over food and we'd fight for fun.

We'd use fists and whatever we were born with, ie. skin, bone etc.

You'd worry about when you next get to eat. Obesity was never a problem, and diseases were just sent from the heavens above.

In wars, and I can call them wars, they'd use swords, bows and shields. They'd fight with honour in armour they bought/won/got given.

Today we don't have time to fight against others. It isn't accepted to fight. But my guess is, that is because we are fighting against ourselves. The more we know the more we have to pick at. People are being diagnosed and treated with drugs, whereas back then they'd just chuck salt at you and say man up.

Everything that once was worked hard for is now taken for granted. I mean decent and fresh food turned into fast food - kept in freezers for goodness know how long.

Today, we fight for justice, we fight for reason that go beyond our petty foolishness, but to what end?

I have no point. There is no point.

I am not bashing modern society - of course not! dont be silly.

just that, well, just midnight ramblings =]

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music: Jay'ed - Luv is...

I have been quite addicted to duets lately. Probably means something - who knows.

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I know it isn't time to reflect on the year yet, but I think this year, I learnt more studies than about myself, relative to last year. Should have been the other way around but it seems this year I have been quite absorbed in the distractions life present to me. Rather than taking time to think things through, things just keep popping up. Constantly yelling for my attention. The result of this is that I cannot put enough mind into each.

The fast pace life-style of the modern world.

in the end.

I just want to "just man up" and tank everything that comes my way [mentally and emotionally of course] but I guess that isn't how it works.

procrastination

Eh well meant to be doing my assignment but being SUPER lazy...

or just getting distracted... hard.

So to counteract this distraction I am distracting myself by blogging instead =]

SO!!!

what is distracting me?

Well I was reading the latest chapters of fairy tale and One Piece. And I seriously cannot get enough of One Piece. To all you ppl you think it is gay.... YOU'RE GAY ^^| but honestly... if I read one piece any later I think I would not have given a poop about my finals until I finished it... it is just that good...

Umm I found a new anime I want to watch lols. I know someone doesnt approve BUT!! I am in control (H) I watched half an ep yesters because my comp was gay and then finished the ep today, and I think I am in love with the chara's voice bahaha

emm.. I have been using blackboard discussion like some people use facebook. Refreshing the page every so second until I get a reply. Only because my assignment is quite badly written and there are so many small misunderstanding that can arise because of the poor wording. There was no advice on how to tackle it and no word limit, giving us less of an indication of what to do.

Ehh... my day today.. I couldnt go squash cos the swim yesterday was so epic haha

aching all over and it felt quite good. only swam for an hour but I basically had the pool to myself, I mean for at least 20mins I was swimming alone. The bad thing is I cant use my arm properly when swimming, might need to wait it out a little longer or do something about it.

Strange though.. I can work hard when it comes to physical fitness but when it comes to study ^^| down the drain it goes. oh wells, I am a labourer's son afterall =P

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learning:

- [edit] no one shall ever know =P

[what was edited] - learning how to fly...

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man.. I have been trying to not 120% of my stomach capacity lately... but it is so hard when the food is so good... oh i have gained weight, but that isnt the the cause of me wanting to eat slightly less. normally I eat till i cant eat anymore, then end up sleepy... that is

1. not healthy

2. not productive

after dinner I am meant to be studying and getting through the stuff I gotta do BUT! I end up drowsy on the couch watching whatever my parents/brothers are watching.

Thus, the reason. I heard after a meal you are meant to feel light, relaxed and [most importantly] awake. Not hungry but not overflowing with food in the stomach. I guess I am not a growing boy in the sense of height any more, so gotta look after myself ;]

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That's all for now yeeeeeea' boy (8) - Clara C hahaha

The inner nerd of us all =]

ひさしー。

been a while since I blogged [not that anyone cares ;]

ok, down to the dirty and gritty, it is spring and almost summer. To be honest I don't like the two very much =P I mean there is insects and the heat to beat. And being a major donor of blood to the mossies and the heat is quite tiring [but good for burning the fat ;] I wouldn't have much energy to do much.

HOWEVER, in the shower I thought I might be more positive this summer or heat period. I mean there are plenty of good stuff to experience in the summer right?

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I remember in primary school, we'd knock off at 3 and get home at 3.30. It was 38 degrees and everyone was quite beaten by the temperature. Even the air-conditioners called out to be saved, rattling away trying to keep the people cool. Out of the car I got and rushed inside to find a slightly cooler living room, but it wasn't enough. I quickly jumped into the shower and slowly turned the cold water on. Under the shower head, I could feel the heat slowly dissipating from my dark black hair. At first the water trickling to my fingers were warm, then slowly as I turned to tap further, my skin was in a cold heaven. I stuck out my tongue and let the water fall almost gluttonously drinking the water. As the cool water slid down my throat I no longer was in this world of heat. Gone.

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Ok let's get to what I wanted to do =P [referring to the title <- just for fun] primary school was about 7 years ago, and global warming had not hit us as much as it is now. so 38 degrees is pretty hot relative to the winter the normal temp then. So at 38 degrees our body is desperately trying to cool our body down, with sweat. This sweat will evaporate utilizing what is known as the "cooling effect". So in order to produce this sweat our bodies must use up energy, and as we move about as well we use up energy so, thus, people would be tired because of the heat. Air conditioners were pretty crap back then, and we haven't changed them since so they are pretty old, hence the rattling noises. HOWEVER, obviously an inanimate object cannot be "crying out to be saved" thus, it must be one of those... those .. what do you call it? english technique.. onomatopoeia!

Well the slightly cooler living room is thanks to the insulation of the house, and the roof. At peak heat [about noon] the gutters play a important roll reducing heat in the summer. As we all know that the earth Rotates at a 23 degrees axis, in summer the sun is approximately 23 degrees at noon. So the gutter is able to block the most direct rays reducing the heat trapped inside by 40%, insulation keeps the morning coolness inside the house and reflects the heat out. However, ventilation like windows and pipes allow heat to flow into the house, resulting in a slightly cooler room.

Turning the tap slowly and allowing the water to trickle does not have any affect. It is pointless =P As we know the colour black is a good absorber of heat, the heat on the hair is greater then the surface temperature of the skin. As the cold water falls onto the hair the heat from the hair is transferred to the water [zeroth law of thermodynamics]. The sensory neurons at our fingers have the ability to sense temperature [as well as pressure etc] at the sensory neurons small electrical signals are sent to from the synapses to the central nervous system and then sent to the brain. This allows up to perceive what we know as cold. Together with the first point we now can conclude that what I was feeling is true, proven by science. Similarly, by drinking cold water the heat is transferred from the point of contact to the water and as the water has kinetic energy we can see that the heat is no longer at the point in contact.

The rest of it is a load of BS =]

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lol ^^|

fun? or fun?

Thus, the title of this blog =D

We smile

, be brave and put on that smile, holding back on words that would never come out right and walk. Walk forward to what may never seem like reality. We take each day without realising much. Taken for granted, the day just passes, as we distract ourselves from what is true. Some say reality and truth hurts; some say reality and truth is what we decide it to be; others... well the others are too ignorant [or busy] to care.

We are all these, and yet none. How can something as arbitrary as this be so definite?

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ZZzzzzzzZZZZzzzzzzZZ

yet no ZZZZZ

ZZZzzzzZZzzzZZZZzzzzZZzzzzzZZZZzzz

These hands...

Don't look at these hands.

These labourer's hands...

They have been stains with blood, sweat and pain.

They have brought happiness, stress and hardship.

They have been punished for my silly thoughts, my anger and stupidity.

These hands are my history that tell you what I cannot tell you myself.

These hands do not lie, like I wish to. After all, there is no point in making others worry when nothing can be done.

My pain is my own, and if there were times I could share the load - I will.

My hands will prove to you how mature I have become.

My hands hopefully with convince you to trust in me.

So trust in these hands, and walk forward with me - to something we all hope is good.

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Imagine you were a never ageing 18 year old. You have gotten over all your hormones and what not [sure if you wish you could revisit your hormones but this is not the point...] Anywho, you are not going to die unless you get killed 10 billion times or something. Ok you some how appeared right after the dinosaurs have disappeared. The only human on the planet until you wait for humans to evolve from Neanderthals.

Now think about the climate. It is the ice age at which the dinosaurs have just died from [lots of food kept cool from rot =P] and then you get the stage flicking to and from ice ages. Then it steadies within the next 50 million years. Slowly you get relatively warm and get averages. humans start to think "productively" and then before you know it the industrial revolution starts. Imagine the types of people you would have met up to this point.

Vikings, Pharaohs, geniuses, the commoners, the sick, the rich. Imagine you have knowledge of them all - their culture and everything about their society. Then the industrial rev. Within another 250 years we are in the present. Today. Right now.

With at least 200 billion years of knowledge. What do you think will happen in the next 100 years. In the next 1000 years and the next million or even 200 billion years?

Don't know about you, but I reckon humans might not be here in the next 3000 years. Humans have been around for at least 4000 years now right? In the past 300 years we have become most populated, and most destructive of our 4000 or so years of existence. [humans as in those that wear clothes and what not.] At the rate we are going I'd give it 500 years before things get really bad and wooh! nature is saved!

Well it doesn't matter. We won't live to see this happen to us right? Wrong - you don't die and forever 18. =]

This wasn't meant to make you sad or what not. Just don't lose sight of the bigger picture - because everyone needs a reminder once in a while.

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going to be busy for the next billion years [trying to save man kind =P] so see you next time i have less hw than expected or trying to procrastinate =]

Are you a-maze-d?

For those bored beings out there that has internet, no study to do, and not HD to aim for [not really] youtube Sungha Jung. I don't exactly know his background, but he is... so talented.. I can only wish to be that talented in a billion years. As long as I don't get arthritis and too old =]

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Something sort of outraged me the other day.

Firstly, do YOU believe in the idea of climate change? Have YOU challenged this notion of climate change? Eh.. well in my lecture we watched a video about the fact that climate change ie. global warming is false and does not exist. By the end of it I was feeling quite sick.. strangely. Why? It isn't because I really believe in climate change but because I could pick out a flaw in almost all of their points they put forward.. The manipulation of information...

Now that I think about it.. it quite reminds me of myself ^^| You probably question why, and it is something that shall stay unanswered till I find an answer myself.

Any who, there was some "scientific" information and results saying that the stratosphere should be warmer than the surface of the Earth but results show otherwise. I couldn't say anything about it. There was only two ways you could determine those results, satellite and balloon. So someone can try convince me - but note I am not one to be persuaded until I find out myself.

- Well throughout the video, it only seemed to be two sides. Those that firmly believe in global warming, and those that firmly do not. I want to tell those who are ready to jump at each other's throats to slow down and calm down... clearly this has been brought up before but both sides of these extreme views have shunned the "fence sitter".

# my view #

In all honestly, I couldn't be too bothered about the technicalities. I want my children, and my children's children and the children of the future to experience the beauties of what this world can show us. Over these 18 years I have seen wondrous things, and I can already see some disappearing. I want to see blue sky where ever I go when I am old and even more wrinkly.

I don't see any reason not to reduce the amount of carbon used. It only causes pollution. It provides electricity but so can greener forms. It'll use up a lot of infrastructure but think about the benefits of doing this.

Also, eventually - sooner or later - fossil fuels will disappear and then what? We are screwed. We end up fighting with swords ... no not even sticks and stones. [no fire to make swords =P or is there?? O____o]

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nande itsu are ga mietara kimochi ga warui ni naru...

shinji arenai kamoshiranai

hayai sugiru kamoshiranai

sona koto zen zen wakanai ka?

nande imin ga wakanai?

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It isn't like walking up a mountain - where your legs burn but you continue and don't stop.

It isn't like a marathon - where breathing hurts and your head is light headed

It isn't like drowning - where gasping for breath only cough and instincts tell you to run.

It is like sitting high up and landing on your head.

Like the numbness of the pain - though you know you hurt something precious

It is the involuntary skip of the heart - causing you to gasp for air.

Like the cramps of chest muscles making it hard to gasp and no matter up much you breath the heart will not slow down.

It is like the dizziness when you run so much and so suddenly that you are not only light headed, but need to throw up.

It is like constantly working hard but not getting anywhere - and you don't feel deserving to complain because you know there are others worse off, and if not, there were people worse off.

But you can't help but feel strangely helpless.

You pick yourself up again, dust yourself off and continue for the [some number]th time.

"It isn't as bad really, it could be worse, it'll be ok."

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Hahaha cryptic msg after cryptic msg. I guess it is late and you know who comes out at this hour? ReNu my arch-enemy. We have fought many battles before, but it seems he has been quite over powering lately. Once I chopped him up and chucked him in the pan... I ate him and then 12 hrs later he came walking through the door completely fine - ready to fight. That day I post poned the fight till I completely digested.

- yes it is all just blabber and doesn't make sense.

1.11 - [as least it was] I wish my arm would bloody stay put so I can punch my sofa into pieces.

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Clouded by your beauty I sit there stunned by what is in front of me. I search through my memory to see your smile again. I sit there in the corner searching when I realise, it isn't your smile I am looking for... but for my own. You were always smiling.

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yokatara... kotoshi mo, kore kara mo, zutto itsudemo... yoroshiku tanomu.

uphill or downhill?

Imagine something so beautiful. A painting of some sort... the original is too your left, and the duplicate is on your right. You can tell which one is which. Which side do you choose to look at?

What if there were obstacles that prevent you from seeing the whole original painting? Would you look at the whole of the duplicate or do you look at parts of the original?

In this instance you cant move towards the painting because you are moving forward. Not by choice, but because you are in a vehicle... ok this isn't going to make sense to anyone so =] yamemasu.

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tsu... ka... re... ta.

I don't even feel lazy. Though I do feel like my efforts are useless. I guess the end results do matter most.

and so... ZZzzzzZzzzz

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riddle that I forgot earlier today.

I have forgotten my bank pin number - but I won't ever forget because it is associated with the children's song/game "Head, shoulders, knees and toes". The Pin number is 4 numbers long. What is my pin number.

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To be honest it is quite similar to the riddle's that have been going around lately. ie. why 4 is cosmic and how many horses are there?

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distraction... distraction distraction. I think it is not working. I can take the other approach, but... but yeah ^^

oyasumi iromono

anta he,

ehhh.... my toes have taken a bashing today hahah. I don't think they are bruised yet ;] my toes have been conditioned so it is ok ;P lols from being stepped on to kicking stuff and having the vacuum crush them. it is invincible =P

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What do you value? What do you really value? From your answer I shall decide if you are selfish or understandingly selfish. I am unsure if you understand the situation you are in. Despite this, you will find out in due time. From what I see and have noted, your time will come soon, but you will not learn. I can act but I do not wish to, or, I do not feel I should. You may have fooled everyone, or you may have fooled me, but I will be, and am not, sitting there doing nothing. You might think you are clear - but I am watching you.

This is a warning. If you hurt that that I value. I will not hold back, and I will not care for the consequences.

I do think of the consequences, and they do frighten me a little, but when the time comes I will not give a pigs poop. I cannot think of any other way I can approach this situation. As long as you do not hurt or burden what I value - I will only sit back and be cautious.

To no-one.

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What I have ticked off the list earlier, in June.

- guitar

- camp

- draw

- visit japan [in my head]

- see thomas

- play a little bit of games

- read manga

- watch K-on!

- watch my boss my hero

- watch anime

- go to Adam's, David's and Thomas's [and maybe Hanson's house] (alphabetical order)

- run around like a crazy man [sorta]

- eat lots and lots and lots .... and lots.

- clean my clothes for the next sem [it might look new if I do]

- see friends and eat friends - they were yummy =]

- [not yet] clean up desk and room - but I have cleaned the house twice on my own.. and then was too tired to clean everything else ^^|

That is 16/23 however, 4 of the original were duds. so 16/19 - not bad. though did most of it in the first 2 weeks haha. and watched anime in the last 2 =P

How to save the world

It was meant to be recorded, however, I got lazy so imagine if an even more retarded Hanson you know, was speaking. Enjoy.

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Good morning, afternoon and evening, ladies and gentlemen, gentlemen and ladies. Today I speak of a controversial topic that no one person has dared to tackle head on. Here I stand before as a human being who will attempt to break the barrier between men/women from talking about this topic. We human beings are magnificent creatures. However, we are not only constructive species but also a destructive species. So as the dominant and most destructive inhabitants on this planet we have a responsibility to save our habitat.

Are you thinking “Save the world? Nothing I can do – so it is pointless”” Think again. You don’t have to recycle; you don’t even need to get off that big furry ass. You don’t have to do much more than what you do already. All you need to do is... eat!

Firstly, eat everything on your plate. Why? Well you are optimising the amount of food relative to the amount you pay. Next you are not as full as you think you are. The food you leave on the plate in food that is thrown out into the bin. Neglected… you know how it feels neglected, so do the food justice and eat it. There are starving people around the world. Not just in Australia, not just in china and not just in Africa. There are starving people everywhere. I stand here before you as a fellow starving human being. So don’t eat for Australia’s sake, don’t eat for Africa’s sake but eat for MY sake.

Next, the more frequent you eat not only does it benefit you, but also benefits the world. It benefits you by increasing your metabolism. By eating more frequent [note: frequent ≠ more food] your metabolism increases at an exponential rate. Considering it has been 18 years and my metabolism rate is 12hrs, in 100 000 years yours will be a few seconds long… hmmm that would be expensive… but no worries in 100 000 years’ time you will be dead so it’s ok. High metabolism rate means you lose fat quicker.

The economical crisis, the great depression and my empty wallet. All great tragedies… All that occurred due to the notion of money. I personally prefer bartering however, society says no. how eating food would save the world would be that it boosts the economy. By spending more, the dollar will go up and the price of food will go down. It is like buying two cakes with $1!! The economical crises would not have occurred if there was a constant demand for supply. Thus, the price drop will allow my wallet to fill up again =]

In summary, eat all your food – not for the starving kids, not because your parents tell you to, but for me. Next, by eating constantly [a reasonable amount at a time] your metabolism rate will increase and there just might be more attractive people everywhere. And lastly, if you eat more food will be cheaper, which means I have more money, THUS! I can spend more money on food! =]

Alright seriously… this how to save the world – your world. If you are full you are happy. if everyone is happy … then… everyone is happy. You + happy = thumbs up.

Thank you =]

まいっか

I have always been made to work hard to get the things that most people get easy.

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I think I was upside down for too long. All that blood rushed to my head... I am light headed atm ha!

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I guess I have a story to tell me children then.

Maybe I am attracted to hardship, I like to feel pain and suffering to look good. But I think, mostly so that I can help ... guide others in times of hardship. あまい。。しってるけど。It is that point in time when you are too tired to even be angry or sad. maiika.

My right arm is weaker than my left arm now.. how shameful...

やぱ子供な

だれでも聞くない。子供からな。

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grown out of those socks too quickly.

Should I wait for the socks to fit me, or should I fit me into the socks?

That is the question.

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DUMMMM duuuumm dummm!!!! <- guitar strums

inochi ga saiko!

hmm... I think I know why I like bruises. Ok let's take a step back and I'll explain. Do you know the feeling you get when you do exercise or something and your muscles ache for the next say.. 3 days? I like that feeling too =] Well everyone knows that when you exercise you release happy endorphins [correct me if I am wrong], so, naturally I would like doing exercise. However, for me not only do I like sports but I like the aching as well. It is a little bit of psychology that Nick taught me. Something about connections or rather. Anywho, when my muscles ache it reminds me of the endorphins and make me happy -> and when I ache [ie. bruises] it makes me happy too.

~ or you can just say I like to feel pain >=]

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Any who, I have a big announcement. I finally got one set from my dad in squash. I think we played about 12 games each haha my brother came and completely thrashed him >=] mm I think my days disappeared like that...

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" I have learnt many things because of my past, because what is happening, and because what will happen. There is no point in the story, but there is a meaning in each line. 'Take your time' is one of them - it is now that you truly enjoy and appreciate life before a new one comes. "

buggered.... -_________-

and yet I am able to write this.

Well ladies and zentlemen. I am.. buggered.

The End...

jitsu wa... tsukareta...

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It has been a long time since I last stepped onto the battlefield. It was nice while the peace lasted... but everyone knew that war was inevitable. The treaty for peace was voided the moment the time has passed. War was never pretty... but this time it was unimaginably ugly... after weeks or even months of peace the war was about to begin.

It was late in the morning, getting close to afternoon before the enemy lines were raided. It was a do or die situation. If the raid was not done, we would have... perished. The plans were quite mixed and very unorthodox. A new general was directing the troops to victory. This is the only war that can be won. The raid was successful, and the largest enemy base was cleaned. There was still enemies hiding, so it was necessary to get the rag, soap and water out - the three elements.

1 hour after midday: the largest area has become our territory. There was still the dining, study, the legendary three bedrooms and the frightfully horrible kitchen... There was no time to lose.

Everything moved out of the way, as the heavy machine sucked all specks of dust and dirty and what not, visible to the human eye. . The powerful tool, eliminated the enemies everywhere. Once again to officially conquer the land the three elements were called.

After a long tiring 3 hours, the ground forces were conquered. There were yet the naval and the air to capture. So the troops were sent to get rid of all that gets in my way.

And thus, 4 hours past after the beginning of it all. The floor was sparkling clean, dishes washed, laundry dried...

- titled: The Cleaning War

Not a matter of black or white

Firstly i want to apologise <- i can never spell it the right way the first time =="
apologise about the cbox, it has disappeared into the bottom of the ocean. An ocean of words =P

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I think feminists and malists [if there is such a thing] got it wrong. Horribly wrong. Males and females, or females and males [for you pro female], as genders looking at how "powerful" they are they both are low. None are more powerful than the other, none are any better than each other. We are humans. Not, we are both humans - as in "because we are both humans we are equal". Humans are horrible, despicable creatures; capable of great, even frightfully great amounts of things. I mean humans can achieve lovely things, productive and even helpful things, but it is the amount of horrible things that will never be able to be balanced by the good things. <- that however is a different topic ;]

As I said humans, as individual genders, yes we are equal, but nothing to be proud about because we are low. However, IF the genders "work together" - how cliché - then the question to the 'gender' battle to see who is more powerful, is answered. It is the relationship between the two that matters. There is always a struggle between who do what amount of work. See if there were understanding between both parties, it wouldn't matter what amount of work is done by each, it is because they act as one unit.

Ok example. Washing dishes. Many couples argue who should do the dishes. Saying "I did it last night, you do it tonight ok?" and sometimes the answer is "yes sounds reasonable i'll do it tonight as long as you do it tomorrow night." This is the easy answer. Sure this works and every is "happy" but... ~ ok you must be thinking Hanson WTH are you on about this works! What more is there? They aren't fighting right? All is fine right? ~ my answer is no.

Even if they were fighting, they still don't see that there are dishes to do. No matter what happens, someone has to do them. They forget to take a breath, step back and look at the bigger picture. The fact is that the dishes isn't their only problem. It is work, cleaning the house, washing the clothes, making food and even who holds the control to the tv. What I am TRYING to say is that there is work to do, so stop fighting over petty things and do it.

But the question was WHO does it!??!?

Firstly, why does it matter? BECAUSE.... because I am busy too. But so is he/she - it does not take long to do it. [ok this can go on forever if I do this] but who does it really is up to you and the other person/people. Understanding. If all parties have understanding, there will be no question of this. This is the basic knowledge for parents - but they lose it once the rules change. The parents must wash the dishes because the children cannot. Right?

If other people were busy for some reason, and you are free wouldn't it be right for you to do it? However, people have too much pride and are too lazy so they use more effort to pick a fight so that other busy person/people do the work. If one person is free go do it. If others are not [relative to you, of course] then you do it. WHY?!? Why not?

This is how life should be... this is how this life... lifestyle should be.

Though there is a power struggle between females and males, the answer to it is not making females better than males. The answer is making both parties understand. You have no idea how much understanding goes. So please understand =]

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That being said. I want to tell everyone esp. my close friends thank you. By just being there/here/where I have learnt a lot and have understood many things about people and myself.

Also, I don't care what you say - who YOU marry is of importance to me!! Why? because when I get married how is my wife meant to talk to your wife if she horrible, and how am I meant to talk to your husband if I cannot communicate to him? SO!! please!! choose wisely, thoughtfully. There is nothing more important than choosing who you are with. Why? because they are an influence on you, on your children and those around you. AND!!! IF YOU CHOOSE SOMEONE CRAP and it is someone who doesn't like me... it means I don't get to see you =(

understand!?!?

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Ps. I am working on a speech I wish to voice out =] Well I can imagine that I would speak it. Because: 1 I don't have the courage to say it in front of many people =P

2: you might kick me off my podium 1mins after I start =] hehe but I do wish I could say it out loud.

Cos it is an important topic, and it is 100% Hanson "lame"

Till next time.

Ps. I have checked off 2 of things off my list for things to do. And tonight Another 2 things will disappear =]

that's how the cookie crumbles

We have a greater sense of responsibility to other rather than family.

or

we believe each other so much we believe that without their help we'll be fine and be able to do it.

or

they really dont have time to help.. so why are they sitting there watching tv

or

maybe they are so ignorant about some stuff they dont see the picture at all. They say look at the big picture, but you need to look at the picture in the first place.

or

... I cant think of any more positive/optimistic statements
it is just pushing me away

a few days ago, I re-thought over my thoughts, and considered not to go ahead with it, because without me no one... will help my parents.
[ps. i promised people i will not be disappearing any time soon SO!!!! I am not going to die. Even if aliens abduct me i will return to earth and get me a pretty girl. Even if i get hit by a truck i will not die until i get a pretty nurse. Even if i lose in my ninja/samurai battle... I will not lose unless it is a pretty girl.... you got the point =] I promise]

I ... I dont know what it is.. I dont have enough courage? I dont have enough anger? I dont .. why... i have been more than patient. I really dont understand. They have even readjusted themselves to suit "them", when "they" dont deserve it.

to be called lazy... no. That pushed it. unhappy about being called lazy? <- how stupid. you have called yourself lazy many times before, why start now? [you ask]
omaera touzen wakanai kara, damare.

It isnt fair to call them lazy because... compared to me and definitely to "them" they arent lazy at all. I dont understand why i had to start trying during the exams period. maybe because help left before exam period. because during exam period "they" have excuses. but "they" really dont understand.

I say this as if i understand. I am sure i dont understand, but i understand more than them.



bhavya where is my punching bag you were meant to get me half a year ago T_________T


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4 hrs to study computing. or shall i sleep less and study more. I think i shall study more and sleep MUCH less.

poof

The next four days are gonna be tough.


Are you ready?


for less sleep? less food?


No time to stop... ready or not, you gotta load your rifle aim and shoot.