まいっか

I have always been made to work hard to get the things that most people get easy.

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I think I was upside down for too long. All that blood rushed to my head... I am light headed atm ha!

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I guess I have a story to tell me children then.

Maybe I am attracted to hardship, I like to feel pain and suffering to look good. But I think, mostly so that I can help ... guide others in times of hardship. あまい。。しってるけど。It is that point in time when you are too tired to even be angry or sad. maiika.

My right arm is weaker than my left arm now.. how shameful...