poof

The next four days are gonna be tough.


Are you ready?


for less sleep? less food?


No time to stop... ready or not, you gotta load your rifle aim and shoot.

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last post was 123th post

Well.. Let's see.

Why am I up? To tire myself so i can sleep

Why can't I sleep? I studied... and for some reason I can only study properly at night - in the garage making funny noises and singing to myself or humming a out of tune random song.

Mmm well studies are going pretty smoothly for maths =P there is physics and computing i ought to think about. One at a time? The fact that I am leaving myself 1 day to study physics is stupid. So I have started learning and going through some phys before.. but I am not loving it as much as I am loving calculus [atm].

Well it got to the point where, there was no time to stress. Be it relaxing and forgetting stressful emotions or study and forget stress cos you're concentrating. Stress is just a load of poop. What use does it do? So despite not studying for a large portion or my morning, even after waking up at 8, productivity is the key.

Productively work, productively eat, productively play.

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Question: Do you guys remember what you were feeling at the end of year 11? And throughout yr 12?

I do.. I remember how intense it was [relatively]. And how lost everyone has become to you. How it was only you sticking up for yourself - because 1. no one could help you 2. everyone was too busy to think of a way to help you

It was THIS after THIS after THIS. I guess uni is similar except - you work on your own terms. Depending on your course you are restricted to how far your "terms" can go but nevertheless, you still want to fit more into your already busy timetable.

- it is late and I have no idea what I am on about =P

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Well what did I achieve today?

I went lemon hunting [seriously...] I got a looooonnng stick and smacked the lemon tree a little and, as if falling from the gods, golden lemons dropped and rolled by my feet.

I re-did 2 past papers [that I spent 2 days on]

I did a test paper under time conditions and became ecstatic at how far I have come within a matter of a week.

I had a picnic with my family [on out lawn, sitting on some chairs staring at the garden, in the sun, with the colours of green and blue contrasting each other]

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I'll back onto this after exams but..

I wish I could tell you, show you, what it is that I am feeling. It isn't easy to describe, but put trust in the two feet you stand on and hold firmly onto what you believe in with your two arms and walk towards your goals. It's okay. It'll be all okay.

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music me!!! <-----------<<<
music arrow that is music-ing me to death

fingers cold

Life as a warrior:

I have to be strong. How else will I be able to face the ones I want to protect when I cannot with stand minor injuries, when I cannot do minor tasks? It has been a while since I was last hurt. This world has been quite peaceful after the feud. The need for me has become something of a desire rather than a necessity. My senses are not as sharp as before. However, the instincts are still all there.

Yes, I got injured today. Minor compared to those I got in the feud. My mind tells me to run, however, my body stood still, and continued. This mind has become weak. Adapting to a life without injuries... My mind spoke "Thank goodness it is cold and your skin felt numb. Otherwise you would have felt real pain." Blood gushed out and it watched curiously as if it has never seen such a thing before.

Intriguing.

This life without need for my swords and armour. It truly is intriguing...

Study = Crazy mind

"There are many worlds out there. Not just in a physical and quantum sense, but also a mental and different dimension sense. Quantum physics tells us that there is a very high, if not definite, chance that there are different worlds. There is a sense of time, in which a second before is a different world to "now" and different to one second later.

There are many examples in which we use apply a sense of different worlds when we say "society". Music society, japanese society, commerce society etc. These are different worlds.

Worlds inside of worlds inside of worlds.

World, ie. Earth, world, ie a country compared to another, world, inside that country etc.

There is one more... There is a world in our own heads. We perceive everything slightly or completely different to others. "All is one, one is all" [familiar?? =P ] We, each person, are a different world ourselves, however, we are what makes up THIS world, society, and these societies make up the Earth and what you perceive it as Earth.

definition of world: http://www.google.com.au/search?hl=en&source=hp&q=define:+world&aq=f&aqi=g1g-s1g8&aql=&oq=&gs_rfai=

As you can see, like many words, world has many definitions. <- hohoho

- said enough -

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I feel like an old man... Every exam period I turn into a blob. Always tired, always hungry/eating and if I could I would slide around the house like a snake. My life is guided by tests. <- hohoho

I think I have found my idol haha. Dr Karl Kruszelnicki... I have my reasons. Reminds me of someone I have met before... well a few people. =]

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To do [after exams.. T___T If I survive]:

- guitar

- piano

- camp

- draw

- plan jap and korea trip.

- tell parents about jap and korea trip T___T

- not die from telling parents cos mum is planning shang hai trip soon... =S

- not die from uncle making me go over to shang hai

- visit japan [in my head]

- see thomas

- mega buff up [for the ladies] *hyuu*

- play a little bit of games

- read manga

- watch K-on!

- watch my boss my hero

- watch anime

- go to Adam's, David's and Thomas's [and maybe Hanson's house] (alphabetical order)

- run around like a crazy man

- eat lots and lots and lots .... and lots.

- clean my clothes for the next sem [it might look new if I do]

- see friends and eat friends.. I mean SEE FrI3nD5 <- just to distract you =]

- de blah! like.. I better! otherwise I am gonna explode and there shall be no more YOU.

- crash the warehouse with a forklift

- clean up desk and room ^^| <- it is embarrassing to even think about how much I need to clean up.

4 weeks to do all this (Y)

I am a greedy boy =] I want so much. Though it isn't the typical things... it is still quite a lot of things. Lazy and greedy. That's me =]

[What a horrible world my mind lives in. If it weren't for the true would to save me from myself... what a different life I would have led.

Engrave this knowledge into my brain because starting over is too painful. ]

Close your eyes

Lose yourself in the melody.

Hear the note vibrate in your ears, feel the piano at your fingertips. Let the violins bring you from the edge of insanity to a place your heart feels content.

It is never too late to lose yourself in music.

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The war has been hard on everyone. For many their lives will stop at that point in time. Let me take your hand, and take you away from this place you call home. Take a quicker step, and leap out of your monotone pace. Don't pause, just follow me.

To a distant place you have never, in your wildest dream, would have thought of going. The clouds so white, the sky so blue, come and run with me in the fields of wonders.

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Don't be scared, I am here for you.

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Come on, let's go, without a moment to wait, taking small steps and then strides. I am here for you, so follow.

In step we'll walk towards the future, to the land we will never believe will come true.

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And so they walked towards the path of which bright them light and warmth. You can hear their footsteps still echo in the halls of greatness and wonders.

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Ehehe... This isn't just random.. ok maybe it is random but it is good. I am, as minch chau might put it, having an ear"gasm" right now hahaha.

My heart is pumping with music, the notes, the echoes. I reckon... IF my ears could walk, they would be flying away right now. Towards the melodies, and chasing the sounds that stole my ears.

lololol =]

Faaaaaaaannnnnttaassstic ;]