wow very devoted readers

hehe wow... the day I put the counter up i get about 80 reads. 40 being me.. but like wow.. 40 views not bad =P

I don't really have much to say but DIE ENGLISH! Though I didn't not like as much as I thought I would... baaah I am procrastinating.. apologies about this retarded blog.. I seriously don't have much to say 0o.

Well today after exams, played handball.. was I was going high for some reason.. mixed with stress of course =] and then joined the yr 8 girls with the volleyball. It was fun and scary at the same time. They all look so fragile.. so spiking was a no no. However, I did attempt once... and failed due to the lack of training... hit a girl.. but on the thighs [WITH THE BALL] by accident. [i was aiming for Robert =D] Anywho, she was aok, and it was fun =] they don't get senior jokes.. so I sound like an idiot when i do joke with them. "Next time you play I'll put on a wig and get into a dress and play vball with you guys yeah?" ... *blank stare* I turn around and smash the ball into Robert's face, breaking his nose, and making lose 12 teeth. It was so bloody but the girls thought it was fun, so they trampled his face. Soon they were covered in bloood.... LOL yeah... it isn't true as you can tell =]

umm... That's all folks. OH! btw channel 99 GO! - new station is up and ATOM!! [simpson lovers will understand] up and away** and it was for you kids ;) teenagers. stuff.. pretty cool.. but the theme music is quite annoying :L i hope they dont play it that much

messages:

- hmm I worry about you,.. but hey it is your life, you live it and tell me how it works out for you. I mean I don't control you. Though your intentions are decent, your goal is confused. That is my concern and there is where you may faulter. But in the end I know it'll be aok. Good luck young padawan.

5 msgs for different 5

- You are my smile on a boring day. The smile that appears when you are around. Not a laugh, not a giggle but a smile. Only a smile but nevertheless, a smile. So thank you, and continue to be my smile. It is one of the small things I look forward to in my day -

- How horribly you may have mistaken this. I don't know how you think, or what you think... but at the moment you are... You must understand. It is difficult-

-My dear friend, you need to take a breath. Not just an exhale or inhale, but a mental breath. For me I meditate, but you don't do that. So just close your eyes, and let your breathing take you to places. Acknowledge those thoughts, and then dismiss them. Clear your mind, and then you will truly see what is real -

- I understand... Why? because I have been through it all. Maybe not completely and exactly, but I know what it is like. Not to worry.. as long as you don't do anything stupid, it'll be aok. But if you catch it early then you will benefit even more. It is whether or not you are smart enough to take in advice and turn them into actions. Rebutting my advice will not take you anywhere. -

- DIE DIE DIE DIE!!!! ! >=( STUPID. why do you have to ruin everything. Look what you are doing to everyone and everything involved. YOU are a waste. Esp, a waste of paper :L -

that's all folks.
can't study!!!! =O too much maths in my head. no english floating near by.

Just about =]

last chance to blog before exams.
okie dokie to the mr pokie sitting in the lokiemokie [train]

loools... this blog is not to be read unless you are not in yr 12.

ummm ok just boring update
sleep - I don't feel like I sleep, it is as if i close my eyes and the next moment I wake up to shower and go to school. Strange huh? The day I am most tired during the day, I am very awake at 12:30am at night.. I guess I was depleting my reserves, that was why I reluctantly went to bed =]

o00o mum's bday was a mid-success considering i did 2hrs of maths half way through, helped my brother with his jap speaking task and had a very loud family/atmosphere. it was ok... i dont think i will ace my 2u paper though.. well i can almost gaurentee that =/ no amount of practise will allow me to get 100% ever.

study - my attitute ... sometimes it is =O *pulls out hair* and internally goes nuts... but I just for some reason don't freak out. I mean 91.75 atar isnt that high.. but at this rate i dont think i can make it sadly.. or can i?? if i could slack off now.. i would... but i dont know.. anyone want to tell me?? [though the consiquences are that if you get it wrong you lose... in life >=D] but for some reasons i can relax and study hardcore without the stress.. wooh. thanks to john mayer and craig david.

music - rnb and alternative.. lately disappeared.. even emmy rossum's music has not been heard in a while. huh... still very pretty. i was considering the idea that anne hathaway was similar.. which they are: pale skin, modern lady with elegance and clothe style that doesnt promote guys to be douches. i think they are same nationality too.. but how they talk is similar.. but.. hathaway does not beat rossum =] rossum still my number 1 (Y) haha

other than that.. life is pretty sad ^^| but with the clouds and rain that lasts less than 2 mins, comes hours of sunshine =]

funny thing language.. and words. i could make the sun seem like something unwanted and rain the good guy by saying "out of the blazing suns rays, burning into our skins, rain will soon comto wash away the pain" but that for another day.. =] ttyl in 2 weeks time ;)

big brother is watching .... me? 0o

hey hey, i just want a show of hands who reads this junk??
or who bothers to check my blog to see if i revealed that i am an alien?

you dont have to put your name - though i prefer it if you did.
for randoms [which i am sure there arent many] just say hello and say you are a random
and people i know.. refrain from being a random. lol.. totally made sense ==" in other words, i just wanna know how many people read this, who reads this, and how often. lol just arbitrary thinking. [had to stop using random]

mood - feeling really really really really really really really really really really dumb. [did not copy and paste that...]

reluctant.

wow... haven't touched this in a while. [for me =P]
ok mystery draw!
english! yes lets talk about studies in my "free"/procrastinating time.

I am listening to old school music! =] as in like 4-6 years old.. Craig David, John Mayer [old album] backstreet boys, boys II men b2k. haha pretty old school. How am I listening to this music? Well long story short, my neglected "MINI" ipod [gen 1] was gathering dust in my drawer... and waking up singing to a very very very VERY old song, it sort of stuck. So there you have it folks. My life story...

Holy moly.. I sound depressed! :L I swear I am not =] promise.

Just english!!!... !!!! ....... *shrugs* just breathe and write ;) [don't forget to think] - personal note...

YES! today! horrible horrible...I don't know why but talking and speaking to ANYONE was just failure. Like trying to convey my message to that person I get tongue tied, and I just blank out. =/ SIL I guess, but still it was something I could control right?? right........? Doing medical physics in class makes you worry that you have all these diseases and flaws.
I used to think I was invincible.. [not really but close to] and now I just feel like a marshmallow... get alight you get burnt and die, or you brown on the outside but turn into liquid and slip into the unknown 0.0

Any who... 2 days. then 2 weeks. then 1 month and 2 weeks. then 2 weeks. then 3months, then 3 years, then ... who knows how many years. No freedom... =O how depressing... blelaugh!

ok ok lighter mood =]
hahah i still got the jane austen book
that ext english issued me last year, but i dropped.
tristian funnily, coming 21st, mistook
his rank for second last, but that bubble was popped
when it was I who was coming last, look...
i was mocked by the teacher and i asked why
all he said was "gee... time does fly"

discover your heart before you discover others. Full of caves and mystery does that mean love doesnt exist? nope ;) if your hearts are one then you can discover together. [i am imagining a couple holding hands and walking around with a torch each, in the other]

wow... horribly forced blog haha
till another day. ;)