We do what we can

Different circumstance different thought process different lives

nevertheless the main point is survival. Mental survival, physical survival and psychological survival. As an engineer I have no basis or proof in what I say - only experience and constant contemplation.

We do what we can. We do what we will. We do what we "should".

Enough said.

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well got back from Japan and Korea and it was the bomb! The highs and the lows; all learning experiences all good memories I wish never to forget.

I miss being there. The food, the culture and the people.

But I will say this. Without the friends that went with, it would not have been as fantastic. In fact it would not have been anywhere close to fantastic.

So to my close friends - I love you guys.

don't do anything stupid or else I'll do something stupid and then... well it is stupid =]

sou kamoshiran

Maybe I am a strange kid.

There will always be failures in one's life. Those who achieve none for a single task will get an applause, and naturally, those who get many get laughed at. However, I want to believe that I am the sort of person who will see failures as stepping stones, and a unique experience no-one can experience. I wish to believe that the more the failures the stronger the person. I mean how strong must that person be to be laughed at, over and over again, yet be able to try and try again.

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I am many things, yet I am not completely all how I desire to be.

Dear Readers of the 21st century,

In a society where there are more than just one world, where these worlds are not visible to the human eye, and can only be observed by our own actions and emotions; we as humans have a responsibility to do what humans do best. Learn.

In such a place with so much chaos happening around us. Truly, ignorance is bliss. But once that ignorance is lost, there is nothing we can do to regain it. Yes, it is scary. Like you can't believe, knowing chaos is scary. That is why we humans try to avoid the chance of learning. But that is stupid... as much as we might fear it, there are more greatness that come out of it.

Think about it. Love.

It applies to love in every way. No matter how many times you get rejected, you still want to do what you did right before you got rejected. You want to be with the person you like, even after being dumped, after a period of time, you want to feel that way again because it just felt that good.

I think, as people with this knowledge we cant let our minds sit in the pigsty it is in already. Get that pig to do some exercise. Strengthen your mind and heart. Know that it is scary to walk into worlds you do not know about, but it is much better than being scared.

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I know...

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We all walk at a certain speed. We all get lost. It isn't time to rage, embrace it as much as you humanly can - try to accept what you got, because there is very little much we can do about it but embrace it.

- YAWN- if it doesn't make sense, sorry

amai kamo

hmm since I don't sleep till about 1.30 anyways

I may as well get out some of the thoughts out.

Well I do think about random stuff people don't normally think about =]

So... ehh well why can't it be like the olden times. Things used to be simple.

We'd fight over land, fight over food and we'd fight for fun.

We'd use fists and whatever we were born with, ie. skin, bone etc.

You'd worry about when you next get to eat. Obesity was never a problem, and diseases were just sent from the heavens above.

In wars, and I can call them wars, they'd use swords, bows and shields. They'd fight with honour in armour they bought/won/got given.

Today we don't have time to fight against others. It isn't accepted to fight. But my guess is, that is because we are fighting against ourselves. The more we know the more we have to pick at. People are being diagnosed and treated with drugs, whereas back then they'd just chuck salt at you and say man up.

Everything that once was worked hard for is now taken for granted. I mean decent and fresh food turned into fast food - kept in freezers for goodness know how long.

Today, we fight for justice, we fight for reason that go beyond our petty foolishness, but to what end?

I have no point. There is no point.

I am not bashing modern society - of course not! dont be silly.

just that, well, just midnight ramblings =]

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music: Jay'ed - Luv is...

I have been quite addicted to duets lately. Probably means something - who knows.

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I know it isn't time to reflect on the year yet, but I think this year, I learnt more studies than about myself, relative to last year. Should have been the other way around but it seems this year I have been quite absorbed in the distractions life present to me. Rather than taking time to think things through, things just keep popping up. Constantly yelling for my attention. The result of this is that I cannot put enough mind into each.

The fast pace life-style of the modern world.

in the end.

I just want to "just man up" and tank everything that comes my way [mentally and emotionally of course] but I guess that isn't how it works.

procrastination

Eh well meant to be doing my assignment but being SUPER lazy...

or just getting distracted... hard.

So to counteract this distraction I am distracting myself by blogging instead =]

SO!!!

what is distracting me?

Well I was reading the latest chapters of fairy tale and One Piece. And I seriously cannot get enough of One Piece. To all you ppl you think it is gay.... YOU'RE GAY ^^| but honestly... if I read one piece any later I think I would not have given a poop about my finals until I finished it... it is just that good...

Umm I found a new anime I want to watch lols. I know someone doesnt approve BUT!! I am in control (H) I watched half an ep yesters because my comp was gay and then finished the ep today, and I think I am in love with the chara's voice bahaha

emm.. I have been using blackboard discussion like some people use facebook. Refreshing the page every so second until I get a reply. Only because my assignment is quite badly written and there are so many small misunderstanding that can arise because of the poor wording. There was no advice on how to tackle it and no word limit, giving us less of an indication of what to do.

Ehh... my day today.. I couldnt go squash cos the swim yesterday was so epic haha

aching all over and it felt quite good. only swam for an hour but I basically had the pool to myself, I mean for at least 20mins I was swimming alone. The bad thing is I cant use my arm properly when swimming, might need to wait it out a little longer or do something about it.

Strange though.. I can work hard when it comes to physical fitness but when it comes to study ^^| down the drain it goes. oh wells, I am a labourer's son afterall =P

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learning:

- [edit] no one shall ever know =P

[what was edited] - learning how to fly...

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man.. I have been trying to not 120% of my stomach capacity lately... but it is so hard when the food is so good... oh i have gained weight, but that isnt the the cause of me wanting to eat slightly less. normally I eat till i cant eat anymore, then end up sleepy... that is

1. not healthy

2. not productive

after dinner I am meant to be studying and getting through the stuff I gotta do BUT! I end up drowsy on the couch watching whatever my parents/brothers are watching.

Thus, the reason. I heard after a meal you are meant to feel light, relaxed and [most importantly] awake. Not hungry but not overflowing with food in the stomach. I guess I am not a growing boy in the sense of height any more, so gotta look after myself ;]

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That's all for now yeeeeeea' boy (8) - Clara C hahaha