while i am

fear - of not being special
issue - not knowing what to do about it
answer - fk them. easier said than done.

it is clear, to me. it is everywhere is it not?
everyone has their insecurities... not enough consolance from someone else will ever be enough. it is, i believe, part of that journey everyone takes to find themselves.

those who do seem to have it together, either are not aware of this, or has it.
these lack of definite answers are going to be the undoing of the curious human race. think about it. buy something from the shops and the child will run up and hope it is for them, or to find out what you have bought. it is most easy to notice through children, because they do not hide these feelings. but i guarentee you that adults no matter how old will have these desires. whether or not they are strong enough to resist them is a different matter.

we humans are basically like humans, the only thing that seperate us is the fact that we humans can think and communicate, express ourselves... and this is the difficulty most people have. if i am unstable, and the ppl around me are unstable how will we stand up? as depressing as this is. reality is we swim in a large bowl of shit our ansestors have left for us, and whilst we swim in it we continue to add to it, leaving it to our children.

that is how it is. it has come to the state where,, happiness is only temporary.
you ask me to find a solution then? find a solution to global warming and maybe that will hint to you how this load passed down to us willl disappear. mm quite funny if you think about it.